Empyreal Light

Hey Nano I hear you be running a penguin gang down on the south side of the equator. You wanna do business in some fine shaved ice?! ;D It's fish flavored!!!

I liked her at first actually but I realized very quickly that she had serious depression problems and wouldn't ever completely break it off with her boyfriend no matter how badly he treated her, which was frequently, followed by occasional apologies (his depression issues were worse than hers). They both had frequent suicidal thoughts. Depression issues are very common here as many people have social anxiety issues irl. Both my best online friends I've met here have the same issues. I've never had any serious issues myself but I've always preferred talking to the alternative and social misfit types as I don't normally get along with traditional alpha males and popular females.

Oh, ok. Thank you. I was just wondering how much I might know you since you seem pretty active and mentioned being here awhile and I've been here a few years. (My other profile is Neko_Vampire) I never hung out on the Tea thread much but I was active on Pika-chan's thread around the same time. (I wonder whatever happened to her?)

i didnt get to read all of your post >.> idk why but with long posts like that i tend to lose my place very often and im like oh wait where was i? i'll try to go back and read it though i stopped right after the catholic thingy. but yeah the bedroom thing i kinda am not a very sexual person yeah i am very perverted but thats kinda just it i dont focus too much on sex. maybe im scared of it? maybe it turns me off? who knows but yeah they do have to be a little cute i get what your saying. i obvi want to be able to wake up next to them and not regret it as bad as that sounds. but yeah i had a crush on a japanese foreign exchange student i was kinda going to ask her out but she was surrounded by guys and thats embarrassing cuz what if i get rejected? but yeah she declined and that was it i stopped pursuing her and avoided her every time i saw her. i actually dated a Chinese girl and a Vietnamese once the chinese girl was online and she kinda disappeared and i never heard from her again. then the viet i think i teased her a little too much and that turned her off to us dating we were more like friends anyway. only had like 3 semi-successful relationships. meaning they were ok to me like i wasnt unhappy and wouldnt mind having it go much longer than it did. but you know what can you do? but yeah i hate stuff like that i rather go and get what i came to do over with than wait on someone else to get things going. like my uncle i went to help him out on a job but like he has this kind of bs work strategy where he gets people to help him then he pretends to be doing something else like an important phone call and leave us to do the work. so the work takes longer because he isnt helping. my accent sort of sounds mexican which is funny cuz i barely speak spanish (and i def dont speak mexican spanish there is a difference between mexican spanish and puerto rican spanish). as for religion dude the whole concept is bs. i kinda dont feel like falling into a category because there is no difference. we all believe in a higher power and they are all deemed god. the bible is bs they tell stories of those who wrote it they can change and add whatever they want into it. and church is just money hungry...if money is the root of all evil then why do they ask for it in church? and they use it to like buy these expensive and fancy looking churches nah fam i want no part of that. but dude lately some strange things have been happening in my house like twice our gas stove mysteriously turned on while we were trying to sleep and if i didnt get up in the middle of the night we could have died. then like doors randomly opening and dude i dont let it get to me because your just feeding into it and giving it power. but holy shit that stuff is creepy when you turn around and swear you saw someone.

ehhh idk i see myself with a girl spending the rest of my life with them buuut is it realistic? its something i want but idk man nothing has lasted a year tbh so idk :/ if it cant last a year def wont last a lifetime. the ones im serious about they break up with me XD the ones im not i break it off. you can kinda tell when im not interested in someone because i dont try as hard to please them. really i dont NEED an asian girl but it would be nice to date one i think they are cute. i believe in a god, but the whole idea is kinda ehhh. i used to be hardcore religious when i was younger because my grandma sorta planted it in my head that, thats how it needs to be. but like idk. i do believe god exists because sometimes he answers to you but i wont do things like read the bible or go to church cuz i think its a bunch of bs. the afterlife idea idk (obvi since im not dead yet) but you really cant explain things like ghosts. maybe one day i'll find out or maybe not who knows XD i probs wont get any gifts this year im kinda too old for that anyway. i dont want much tbh and the things i do want i rather get for myself when i get money (mainly cuz they are expensive) life is kinda on a stand still for me right now .-. im not moving forward but im not going backwards either. i've managed to change somethings about myself and change things within my control but things i cant control are kinda holding me back. stuff like school, work, and then the airforce. the airforce recruiter kinda gave me false hope TwT they basically told me i only had 4 pounds left and i could sign up.....but he put my height as 5'9 which would put me around 126 pounds to join i think.....buuuuuut im not 5'9 no where close to 5'9. sooooo i gotta stick to that 140 to get in and i also failed the test they gave me. but that was because i ran out of time in one section i got i think a 41 and i needed 50. so maybe if i answered the questions and didnt run out of time (and was 5'9) i would be signed up rn orz

and thanks dude hopefully you get a good christmas too lol ik mine will be awesome cuz we are spending it by my cousin's house and we always have fun when we go over there. he is like the only kid in my area who i can relate to. and they all watch anime over there in his house. but yeah hoepfully all the people you were getting gifts for give you a good reaction so you can feel good for doing it c:

ehhh i may not be asking of tooo much tbh cuz like i didnt say she had to be ultra cute i mean being cute is nice but her looks arent all that important i do have my preferences but i can accept a few things. yeah i mean i dated an asian girl before XD actually 2 of them so they dont just like white guys i dont think that is accurate. i've dated alot of girls ranging from Hispanic to like Swedish but idk i still find asian girls to have what im looking for. they tend to always have what im looking for but with like a few minor things that make the relationship not work so idk. but kinda enough about that. yeah idk i get along with girls more than guys i dont really get close to guys besides like you and a few others. i also think some guys look handsome but i dont ever see myself with another guy XD they dont do it for me. i just find girls really attractive but nothing wrong with getting along with guys more than girls. i grew up around females so ik how females think lol kinda have the perspective of both sides. yeah its only getting harder to live in america dude. i kinda made up my mind that im moving somewhere else out of country idk where yet though. but yeah its just my stepdad works in a very dangerous job and they dont get that he put his life at risk everyday going to work. but his boss doesnt care when he comes to him complaining about things that needs to be fixed so he doesnt like go out one day and end up never coming back. so he said he is gonna quit cuz money cant buy his life back and they dont pay him enough for that line of work either. he fuels like trucks and stuff for other businesses so if that truck like even flips or something he is a goner for sure. no coming back from that.