Confessions

Yuki, If you're being serious, go to http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org and they have a number you can call. You're never alone. On that note, a few years back I used to have a roommate who was quite the alcoholic and suicidal at times. I remember just talking with him for about 8hrs one day, just trying to keep his mind focused on better things. He eventually called a local suicide prevention hotline only to get a recording saying they were closed and to call back in the morning. We both got a good laugh out of the irony in that situation. He eventually met up with his dad one day and started getting real medical help, but I just thought I'd share that since it's kind of funny and hopefully gets at least a little bit of a smile.

@Yaasshat You probably don't care about what some dude behind his laptop has to say on a website mostly aimed at anime, but when you say stuff like that, I think you're a good person and I think we'd all do good telling someone that every once in a while. I know that message was meant for Yuki, but the story got at least one smile and likely more ^^

I'm not able to sleep face down because, I can't breathe. If i try to move the pillow under my chin to be able to breathe it just digs into my throat. I cant turn my head to the side sleeping on my stomach because, it stresses my neck. I feel too bunched up sleeping on my side so really the only way I can sleep is on my back. Its not a big problem so much as it is really fuckin annoying.