Confessions

i came here to vent about how stressful it is to be 5 months deep into a relationship with a person you thought you liked but slowly realized you have nothing in common with other than a disability and shitty parents she is not bad by any means but im not really happy anymore i just want a little more out of life she doest have a drive for anything she dropped out of school and became a couch potato i tried to help her go back but she seems to be ok with not doing anything worth a damn and i can't take it anymore the reason i wanted to be with her was because i wanted to feel loved and have someone to talk to about anything but i wanted someone with ambition and goals although i used to think she loved me and i did too im starting to feel like she is just like the feeling is dying on my end and i don't know how to tell her she is not interesting she never has anything interesting to say is all drama about her mom or dad or her dumb friends whom i hate i honestly dont even wanna reply to her text anymore because i dont want her to go off about bullshit i try to take her outon dates but i feel as though she wants to go to fancy places and i can't take her there also i feel like she is selfish because she wants me to get along with her friends but she doesn't try to get along with mine a few days ago i saw one of my friends from high school while going to the city with my other friend and i noticed something my old friend actually having a conversation with my newer one and actually getting along and i realized my gf never does that she doesn't even talk to my friends she just wants me to pay attention to her like i said i feel like she is selfish plus she hates anime and marvel films and anything super hero related she claims to be a star wars fan but she really isn't she just watches the movies as they come out but she is not a fan she even said she thinks light sabers are dumb i dont care for star wars either way but dont claim to be a an of something if you dont know shit about it i can't take her to cons or do couple cosplays or anything fun all she really cares about is makeup which is fine but i wish we had more things in common she is boring and i hate it im not really social and she wants me to go to a party in a few weeks to meet her family and i don't wanna go i hate people and parties and she knows that and yet she wants me there again being selfish if im being honest with myself the only reason i asked her out was because my crush i had for 7 years got pregnant and i felt like shit so i said fuck it i have no one to save myself for anymore and just asked her out at first i felt great but now i dont know like i said i dont hate her im just not really happy anymore im only writing this here because no one knows i have this account and i needed to get this out of my chest i originally wrote this on my profile but i thought having it here would help since i dont really know what to do and im open for advice

Vent to an ex? That's a weird dynamic, if there ever was. I had an ex who just reminisced about old times and told her ex before me how much she missed him... Yet, she had the gaul to be irritated when I got upset about her doing so. "It's not cheating." She'd say, "But it is, emotional cheating is still cheating.". I'm so very glad to be rid of that mess. Of course, she did eventually cheat on me with a random while drunk, but again "Its not cheating, I dont remember and I was drunk.". Moral of the story is, go for emotionally mature and stable people, you'll be much happier for it. Live and learn.

I have a terrible track record a friend of mine in particular has been well briefed on. I tend to go from 0 to 100 real fast and many women cant keep up with that. Add to that a high level of insecurity and trust issues and I amazingly go from "omg you're the best guy ever" to "omg dont ever talk to me again" sometimes in the span of 24 hours.

i confess having friends abroad is awesome ill be going to a wedding in ireland in two years (100% bringing my mom and gonna smooch that blarney stone)