Confessions

I knew MBTI in 2014 when I noticed the phrase INFP from a Finn's info.I didn't know its meaning,so I googled it.Out of curiosity, I took that test out of curiosity, and got the result INTJ.However,I didn't take advantage of that system until 2016 when a French person found me with the keyword INTJ.That person told me a lot about INTJ besides deep conversations about China/Mao Zedong/Communism.I got to know what kind of people I can have deep conversations with even befriend.Those people's interests,hobbies, conversational styles and so on.I also knew I have a thinking personality, that is why I seem detached and uncaring.I have had good conversations since then, and made friends with a few like-minded individuals, though I'm imperfect.Those friendships are mutually beneficial.I learn to be more open-minded,patient,well-informed."I like the flawed and imperfect you, your mind, your personality, that formidable armour, and the person it shields.".These words touch my heart.I feel I'm worthy again(I was living in an enviroment where I was constantly devalued).I made up my mind to improve myself.Lol I also get to know there are so many fake people online...But people I can befriend are mainly genuine, and have beautiful souls. Moreover,I know introverts are not that unique.Many introverts can be diplomatic as well.Toxic people can be introverts or extroverts.

Pride month always makes me sad It reminds me it's one more year that I can't be honest with myself and the world... A lot of my low self esteem problems comes from this and how I'm not and will never be normal

@muffin.. ur friend might have exagerated anxiety problem or something else and what i would be saying next might be wrong, infact i hope it is. But the fact that she was hospitalized for soo long and she even cut-off from her friends, not allowing them to visit her and yeah even going back to korea for treatment leads to me to think that she has a disease with a bad prognosis, probably a cancer/tumor. And since u said she had panic attacks, it can be a brain tumor, brain tumors can cause seizures which is often misdiagnosed as panic attacks and anxiety problem. Do u know if she had vision or menstrual issues? Well if the panic attacks were really coz of a brain tumor, then it will most probably be a benign one and she will be cured eventually.