"I'm ugly"

now if only plastic surgery wasn't so damn expensive ... hahaha who am i kidding , wouldn't know what to change to make me attractive for people ...

This is a strange zone for me. I am diagnosed with muscle dysphoria which is rather annoying. Every time I look in the mirror I see something disgusting. So I hit the weights and other means of exercise. Even when I was at my greatest physical condition I saw something absolutely hideous. However deep down I know it's all in my head and even if I had the body of Jay Cutler or Kai Greene I would not be satisfied. Even if I had the body of the a Space Marine I would not be satisfied. It doesn't keep me away from the weights and to some degree it does my health a bit of good. However to answer the question "am I ugly?", I see ugly in the mirror. Others may see otherwise, but that's a matter of personal taste.