20 Questions

part 2 apartment in a busy part of a major city https://media.tenor.com/1RLeQDj6tEMAAAAC/riding-bean-anime.gif 1. What is your most toxic trait? My ambition was crushed and I want to see everything else get crushed around me. https://media.tenor.com/FA86QTtgBnMAAAAC/chocola-fire.gif 2. Do you like Japanese culture or just Anime? Both, I very much like both the classical and modern culture of Japan. One of my favorite movies is "The Emperor's naked Army marches on" It's about a WWII veteran who tries to find out what happened to two soldiers who were executed after Japan surrendered. https://media.tenor.com/7J5iQxAR5BsAAAAC/anime-metro.gif https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uXn7aFPedKc 3. Do you make your bed every morning? oh, heck no. It's not gonna get messed up at night :P https://media.tenor.com/1Imibvq01BEAAAAC/anime-trip.gif 4. What is your favorite kind of soap? lavender or lemon. I usually like soaps without sulfates. https://media.tenor.com/4n7dDOrugSkAAAAC/anime-mikan.gif 5. What do you like to do for 'self-care'? This was asked before XD. Please refer to my other answer. The exercise I like is yoga, tai chi, and walking. https://media.tenor.com/f7Td7sziO8UAAAAC/toki-hokuto-no-ken.gif 6. Do you prefer roaming around crowded places like malls and markets or secluded places like forests? I enjoy both very much. https://media.tenor.com/UyC9TSivCNYAAAAC/ai-ohto-wonder-egg-priority.gif 7. If you saw a kid stealing a loaf of bread, what would you do? Tell his dumbass to get his dumbass parents to apply for food assitance. No one should be going hungry in a developed nation. The only reason they do is cause we are brainwashed to think living has to be earned and is not a right. https://media.tenor.com/VCLfSZRl4yMAAAAC/anime-miyano.gif 8. If you were an animal, what kind of animal would you be? lazy cat https://media.tenor.com/rNNnLEwaWpUAAAAC/cat-lazy.gif 9. Do you have a talent you're particularly proud of? Eh, I really should answer this but I just want to say no. I don't feel I have any particular special talent. https://media.tenor.com/WqdUzHZ4CfAAAAAC/anime-nichijou.gif 10. How do you pass the time in a place like a waiting room of a hospital? Cell phone, fuck everyone who thinks they are bad. Just look at people in the past. We all had our noses buried in newspapers, magazines, etc. It's the same shit just more streamlined. https://media.tenor.com/QTtX8fpH_DEAAAAC/akane-shinjo-anime.gif 1. How are you feeling today?-------------------------------------------------- Pretty good, muscles feel agile. Mind is calm. Had some fun. So good. https://media.tenor.com/kizmJ1TsKIUAAAAC/sailor-moon-anime.gif 2. Do you have any chores today?------------------------------------------ just laudry. https://media.tenor.com/WvThdsMG0rAAAAAC/washing-pants.gif 3. What hobby brings you joy lately?------------------------------------------ same as always, anime, games, movies, music, walks, tai chi, yoga, reading. https://media.tenor.com/Z7YjCj-PFWwAAAAC/anime-girl.gif 4. Do you daydream a lot?------------------------------------------ Very much so, I day dream and live in the world at the same time my mind is in all places. Just waiting for me to realize it so I can escape Samsara https://media.tenor.com/9mHp7S9tqR0AAAAC/saiyuki-gun.gif 5. What do you tend to daydream about/ if you do?------------------------------------------ dreams, fantasies, worlds I visit, scenarios, fear, making sense of things. https://media.tenor.com/TQRFMwRqtGAAAAAC/gensomaden-saiyuki-sanzo.gif 6. Do you pay attention to celebrity news?------------------------------------------ I do, I like gossip. I like finding out how many celebrities are frauds. https://media.tenor.com/4lTHjEnWHeYAAAAC/tokimeki-memorial-dating-sim.gif 7. What goal are you working towards lately?------------------------------------------ Going slower with my tai chi exercises. https://media.tenor.com/LyJNgXbEqFEAAAAC/crash-boxes.gif 8. Is there anything you're looking forward to currently?------------------------------------------ my birthday party that I'm planning. https://media.tenor.com/WLGGkDgMjekAAAAC/anime-yuru.gif 9. Do you remember your dreams?------------------------------------------ So many, my dreams make up part of my overall memory. They are important messages. 10. Are you a lucid dreamer/someone who is aware they are dreaming within their dreams?------------------------------------------ No, and I prefer not to mess around with my dreams. Atleast at my current place in life I want them to be as they are meant to be. In the future I maybe be more interested in lucid dreaming. https://media.tenor.com/2HyNxpWoG1MAAAAC/sailor-moon-usagi.gif

1. What is your most toxic trait? I procrastinate a lot. like A LOT. 2. Do you like Japanese culture or just Anime? Nah just anime. I don't care much for Japanese culture. 3. Do you make your bed every morning? Nope cuz I don't have to. I tuck my bed sheet into my bed so it doesn't move. 4. What is your favorite kind of soap? The type that cleans XD 5. What do you like to do for 'self-care'? Shave my face, apply face wash to make my skin fairer, smell good 6. Do you prefer roaming around crowded places like malls and markets or secluded places like forests? Secluded places for sure 7. If you saw a kid stealing a loaf of bread, what would you do? I wouldn't care 8. If you were an animal, what kind of animal would you be? RACOON COME ON 9. Do you have a talent you're particularly proud of? Not really 10. How do you pass the time in a place like a waiting room of a hospital? play solitaire on my phone

1. How are you feeling today? I'm feeling alright. I'm hungry 2. Do you have any chores today? I have chores to do every day. Gotta take care of the dogs, take care of my lil bro, keep the apartment clean, clean the dishes 3. What hobby brings you joy lately? I don't really have a hobby that brings me joy. Watching anime is close 4. Do you daydream a lot? An unhealthy amount 5. What do you tend to daydream about/ if you do? My life if past events had gone better, my life if I get a perfect future, fantasies, etc 6. Do you pay attention to celebrity news? Not really. I don't really care about that stuff 7. What goal are you working towards lately? Getting into Law university 8. Is there anything you're looking forward to currently? going home and eating food XD 9. Do you remember your dreams? Nope they go poof when I wake up. I get left with the feeling that I just had a very good dream but what was it about? 10. Are you a lucid dreamer/someone who is aware they are dreaming within their dreams? No I am not

1. How are you feeling today? I'm usually either a state of numbness or masking(meaning I hide my feelings as a defense mechanism) -------------------------------------------------- 2. Do you have any chores today? Laundry, hygiene stuff, and the usual emotional support demon ------------------------------------------ 3. What hobby brings you joy lately? No. I don't feel joy these days. ------------------------------------------ 4. Do you daydream a lot? As a child my father called me a 'cloud cadet'. I've always been a daydreamer because I'm safe in my dreams------------------------------------------ 5. What do you tend to daydream about/ if you do? I dream of being free of my situation. I just want to live comfortably knowing the people I care about are okay.------------------------------------------ 6. Do you pay attention to celebrity news? No. I don't really even know celebrity names. ------------------------------------------ 7. What goal are you working towards lately? My main goal is getting me and my oldest sister out of this abusive hell hole. I got baby sister and older sister out, but this time, I don't have physical ability on my side.------------------------------------------ 8. Is there anything you're looking forward to currently? Not really. It ties back to that lack of joy.------------------------------------------ 9. Do you remember your dreams? Yes. Often vividly. ------------------------------------------ 10. Are you a lucid dreamer/someone who is aware they are dreaming within their dreams? As someone with PTSD, teaching myself how to lucid dream has been extremely useful. I recommend it to everyone I council on PTSD. It doesn't work for everyone, but it works for enough people that it's always worth trying.------------------------------------------

1. After a bad day, how do you destress?-------------------------------------- 2. Do you prefer small talk or deep discussions?-------------------------------------- 3. Are you are cry baby or a stone?-------------------------------------- 4. Do you prefer to plan things out or wing it?-------------------------------------- 5. Do you get lonely easily?-------------------------------------- 6. When you see someone struggling with something, are you more likely to help them or leave them alone?-------------------------------------- 7. Do you get distracted easily from important tasks?-------------------------------------- 8. Would you prefer a large friend group or a small one?-------------------------------------- 9. Do you prefer working with a group or solo?-------------------------------------- 10. How do you tend to comfort your friends if they're feeling depressed?-------------------------------------- 11. Have you ever cleaned up litter that wasn't yours?-------------------------------------- 12. Do you like to be the center of attention?-------------------------------------- 13. Do you believe in true love?-------------------------------------- 14. Do you feel like you have time for your hobbies lately?-------------------------------------- 15. Do you hold yourself accountable when you realize you're treating someone unfairly?-------------------------------------- 16. How hard is it to admit you're wrong on something?-------------------------------------- 17. Do you think it's better to judge people as individuals or as the group(s) they identify with?-------------------------------------- 18. How do you handle cognitive dissonance?-------------------------------------- 19. Do you think you get treated unfairly by the group you are attracted to?-------------------------------------- 20. What do you think of flat earthers?--------------------------------------

1. Hang around my family, take a nap, maybe cry depending on how stressed I am and then calm down lol 2. Both! If you want small talk I can handle that, but I am also used to deep discussions. Although, if you are gonna be rude while talking about something deep I won't enjoy it 3. Cry baby. I can be (in my own way) tough on people/myself depending on when...but I'm a professional cryer and am terrible at hiding my emotions lol 4. I can do both. But especially when dealing with people's issues or attitudes I carefully think how I'll approach them about it 5. IDK? I'm never alone 6. Help them. But I do know when to leave them be and let them work things out for themselves at times too, cause not everyone wants or needs my help-------------------------------------- 7. Idk? Maybe? I do and can get distracted easily----------------------- --------------8. Doesn't matter the number to me--------------------------------------9. I can do both. But I enjoy groups cause I do well bouncing ideas off others--------------------------------------10. Hugs, talking, simply just being a silent presence cause not everyone wants to talk--------------------------------------11. Yes--------------------------------------12.I find myself feeling embarrassed or nervous, but I also find people's attention endearing. Especially the way they do it--------------------------------------13. I do. I believe I've had this discussion irl before XD--------------------------------------14. Yes, too much time >:(--------------------------------------15. Yes. But I try my best to be self-aware about how I treat others :3-------------------------------------- 16. I don't know? I hardly speak up if I know or think I'll be wrong...so I either stay quiet if I'm not sure about my knowledge of the situation or I apologize when it has happened--------------------------------------17. Who am I to judge anyone? XD But, I think it's about using your own common sense...or intuition at times. Like, I do believe sometimes when people hang around a certain group (especially if it's a negative one) their behaviors can change and whatnot or that the people they choose to hang around can/could help you tell about their behaviors somewhat , but sometimes the individual is the issue and I know it's not always the group they surround themselves with...idk how to explain RN lol-------------------------------------- 18. As for myself I talk inwardly about it to myself and really do try not to be a hypocrite about the beliefs or views I have. I also am very harsh on myself inwardly and beat myself up lol-------------------------------------- 19.No--------------------------------------20. I don't even know anymore. I just let them be

Doing this in the same format as Daddy Ghost. It's actually smart coz 10 is about how much I can answer without the screen going all William Nilliam. 1. Favorite game? Terraria, with all positivity. Like truly. It's a masterpiece, no other game can ever bring out such strong emotion in me. Whether it be raging at even the slightest inconvenience, or simping madly for the Party Girl, and make me go whining to her after dying an ungodly amount of times to the fucking lunar pillars. Every playthrough is an emotional workout, and I love it. I've played it since I was a kid, and it's never once lost its charm. And this is just the vanilla game. Don't get me started on the mods, which the devs happily support and even released the modloader as a free DLC on Steam... https://media.tenor.com/SxZM_hg5iMQAAAAd/terraria-pvp.gif https://media.tenor.com/ZdZgD0Z97NAAAAAC/terraria-gameplay.gif This one deserved 2 gifs as opposed to the normal 1. 2. Baguette. No seriously. I've had arses call me that before. they'd go "Haw haw haw baguette!" Thing is, back then, I refused to fight. These days, I really could care less, say it around me and they'd be getting slugged good. Though maybe not by my hand. I'll consider anything unfortunate that happens to them my payback If I can't have my way with them first. Point is, these French stereotypes are seriously annoying, but I simply content myself with the fact that the nature of the world will dish out my desire for them to hurt and suffer eventually. Bless Mother Nature, by the way. https://media.tenor.com/MKf4BfAzYcwAAAAC/you-cant-stop-nature-you-cannot-stop-nature.gif 3. Do I like Pokemon? Look at my pfp and ask that again. LOL 4. Favorite Non-Legendary pokemon? Honestly, I've never quite been one for legendaries anyways. I don't know if you're counting Pseudo-Legendary or not, coz Hydreigon is one of my favorites. https://media.tenor.com/O_REtW0yPCoAAAAC/hydreigon-pokemon.gif If not, then lets say my all time favorite Toxicroak. https://media.tenor.com/dkMgTpUj48QAAAAC/toxicroak-frog.gif 5. Favorite legendary? like I said, not a legendary type of guy. However, if Pseudo legendary counts here, the throw Hydreigon over here. If not then.... hm.. Probably Virizion. Perfect example of how graceful the forces of nature can be. https://media.tenor.com/UlrmAWr3dr0AAAAC/virizion-legendary-pokemon.gif 6. Have I played DnD? I used to run a DnD club in school, fun fact. I've never been the dungeon master though. I've had too much fun stealing my friends stuff and getting abysmally bad rolls in dire situations. I would troll so hard. 7. Trolladin. Its not official. I'm a Paladin who trolls. There was this once I'd go into battle with a pasta noodle, in a group of randoms, the dungeon master wouldn't even make me roll for it, pasta noodle was an instant kill on the slightest contact, while the other guys were busy juggling dice around while equipped with actual good gear.... LOL Good times. 8. I don't actively go to cons, but I do cosplay. I know outside of a con, it won't be as accepted/appreciated, but at least I'm standing out. that's what I'm meant to do at any given time while I'm outside. Maybe not a cosplay, but you get the idea, Dum-Shark. (Almost forgot about that) 9. I am getting ready for a Doppio cosplay, actually, you'll see it, coz I'll definitely post some pics of it. https://media.tenor.com/kJIKkCP_rMEAAAAd/doppio-vento-aureo.gif 10. I do not appreciate, nor envy conventions, and those who attend. Why go when what should be making you stand out makes you normal and bland instead? . Edit: You see my effort slowly waning throughout? That's why I don't do these. I feel the need to answer in full detail, even if they aren't truthful. Yet, this site is a horrible place to try and be thorough. These take whole hours out of my day so I start to eventually rush it.

1. After a bad day, how do you destress? I don't. I'm always stressed. My day is always some variety of hell.-------------------------------------- 2. Do you prefer small talk or deep discussions? I prefer deep discussions, but I don't really like talking about myself. So I always try to keep the conversation on other people.-------------------------------------- 3. Are you are cry baby or a stone? I was voted most likely to be a serial killer in high school for a reason. I rarely show emotion to anyone. Even if I'm actually deeply empathetic, I just don't feel like my own feelings have ever mattered to anyone. So I just set them aside.-------------------------------------- 4. Do you prefer to plan things out or wing it? I much prefer to plan things out. Spontaneity scares me and I hate having to clean up the messes of people who cannot, do not, and will not plan.-------------------------------------- 5. Do you get lonely easily? No. I've always been a loner. So I prefer being by myself.-------------------------------------- 6. When you see someone struggling with something, are you more likely to help them or leave them alone? Depends. If they ask for help, I'll help them. If they don't ask for help, I'll encourage them but leave them to figure it out on their own.-------------------------------------- 7. Do you get distracted easily from important tasks? Sometimes. But mostly because I have so much work to do that I'm focusing on at least 3 things at one point in time.-------------------------------------- 8. Would you prefer a large friend group or a small one? I currently have two friends that are not blood related to me. I don't care to make new friends, but I end up being the one to do it, since my sister and bestie can't be bothered despite being the ones who want a bigger friend group.-------------------------------------- 9. Do you prefer working with a group or solo? Solo. I hate working with others because they slow me down.-------------------------------------- 10. How do you tend to comfort your friends if they're feeling depressed? It depends on the person. I volunteered at VOCA(a summer camp for child abuse survivors) and a Suicide Prevention program, so I'm uniquely qualified to help and tailor my response to suit their individual needs.-------------------------------------- 11. Have you ever cleaned up litter that wasn't yours? Beach clean up was always a lot of fun, and in general I like cleaning, so yes. -------------------------------------- 12. Do you like to be the center of attention? No. I fucking hate it. If I'm the center of attention, chances are I'm being blamed for something. So I avoid it at all costs. Even the thought of being the 'bride' at a wedding sounds horrible to me.-------------------------------------- 13. Do you believe in true love? I don't really know. Maybe for some. I don't think it's for me though. I'm just too... damaged... I guess.-------------------------------------- 14. Do you feel like you have time for your hobbies lately? I have neither time or resources for my hobbies that aren't also my job.-------------------------------------- 15. Do you hold yourself accountable when you realize you're treating someone unfairly? Yes. I am aware I have toxic traits and abusive behaviors. I do my best to avoid these things and will walk away if I feel myself getting to that point.-------------------------------------- 16. How hard is it to admit you're wrong on something? It used to be very hard. I was one of those people that clung too tightly to my opinions, but being through what I have, I don't want to be any of the people who have hurt me. So I hold myself accountable.-------------------------------------- 17. Do you think it's better to judge people as individuals or as the group(s) they identify with? I don't judge people on many things. Whether you're religious, LGBT, Politically motivated, etc. I don't think you're an evil person for those things. I do judge people on how they treat animals and customer service. -------------------------------------- 18. How do you handle cognitive dissonance? I don't experience it much anymore. The best way to deal with cognitive dissonance is to be more empathetic to people who don't share your beliefs. You should try to understand why they have their opinion, and try to learn something even if you don't agree.-------------------------------------- 19. Do you think you get treated unfairly by the group you are attracted to? I'm not attracted to men or women or anything. I'm basically ace. That being said, I do get treated poorly by people. I wouldn't say it's a collective, but to say my race and gender have nothing to do with how badly I've been treated... is ignorant... I think.-------------------------------------- 20. What do you think of flat earthers? They're some of the dumbest people on this poorly peeled boiled egg we call Earth.--------------------------------------