Religious rants

@hell_hound7 I'm not talking about myself I already have strong religious views. I'm talking about you and your soul. Do you want to get into Heaven? To do God's will? What are you hoping to do. Cause we all know about Jesus. What's your relationship with Jesus? Cause that is concerning for me.

No i am not doing it to get into heaven, although yes i would like to get into heaven. My goal is also not to just do God's will, while yes i have prayed for him to use me as a vessel to spread his message. My goal is simply to save others. I want other people to make it into heaven. Even if i myself am beyond salvation and for whatever reason God has determined i wont make it into heaven (not saying this is the case just a metaphor) i want others to go. I want people who tethering on the line to make that final step forward. No self righteous conviction, no cultist ideology, no thinking im the chosen one. Simply paying forward the kindness God has shown to me. For despite being a sinner he has not forsaken me. I want others to know that feeling of love, compassion, and mercy.

That position has been filled already. Jesus is already saving souls. People just need to heed the call. Have you thought about charity like volunteering? That would do a lot of good for your spiritual health. Also what's this talk about being beyond salvation? Do you think so little of your own God?

No i do not think little of my God but i do know you can have ur name removed from the book of life and jesus can say he does not know you. I also know there is an unforgivable sin of blaspheming the holy spirit. While i dont necessarily think i have dons something so blasphemous. If i never repent and continue doing the wrong things despite knowing what it is God calls on me to do in his name. Am i really gonna go to heaven. I would just be a spectator of Christianity not a follower as i didnt follow his word. Also i know the Holy spirit is working overtime to bring people over to the side of the lord. I am not trying to overtake anyone. I am just bringing forth information. The best thing i can do is use my gifts to serve God. What is my gift from god? What has he allowed me to have that can benefit him? That is my knowledge. I dontbhave riches and dont have platform or influence so there is this. My knowledge what i know and where to find info. Its the one thing i feel is my gift.

When you mentioned being beyond salvation that's a sinful thought. You're challenging God's power there. He who orchestras all things yet you're so special that being saved is beyond His power. You don't believe God's word if you think you're beyond salvation. Yes, your name can be stricken but easily brought back. It only takes a moment. My point is I don't think you're helping yourself here. I asked if you went to Church cause you seem to be teaching yourself from YouTube. You don't have a group to learn with or someone experienced in following the Word to guide you. To do charity with. Many church groups do charity and that's very good for their spiritual health. You don't need riches, a platform, or influence. That's what God's church is for. It'll give you a place. End times coming or not makes no difference aslong as you get right with God.

Nah man it was a metaphor, I dont believe you are inherently "beyond salvation" i was saying inspite of whatever outcome my afterlife becomes heaven or hell, my goal remains the same. I wasnt doing it to gain favor. I was saying lets say i was determined by God almighty himself i was going to hell. Lets say i just didjt repent, didnt do as i was instructed despite knowing all it is he has told me to do. What to stay away from, what not to say or do. Yet i openly defied him and he has not chosen me to join him in his kingdom. Thats what i meant not literally he has no power to save me. He can do anything he wants as he is God. Yes church is about building that community. I believe its important, but it is not as though i have no council. I have a family i can go to for questions. They do go to church and while yes thats not the same as ME going. Im not exactly a resident of Alaska i moved here for the military. I havent really explored the community or things like that. I have been trying to establish that connection though. Hence the military chaplain i spent some time helping him pass out food to hard working doctors and nurses working during the holiday. While he and i didnt speak about religion. I sought out that interaction to make myself familiar with him as i intend to speak with him for guidance. I am not entirely blind to my short comings. I am working on myself as well. But yputube has been a great respurce. While i read the bible i have basically dozens of different people's opinions i can compare on certain issues and topics. So while physically i am not within the church itself i am established in the community it has. I watch live service and talk to other christians in comment sections. I wouldnt quite dismiss it.

I felt guilty about not being active in the church. But i am looking to volunteer more and do outreach. I just myself have not established myself in a specific church. Part of the issue is figuring out which denomination is right for me. I agree slightly with Evangelists so maybe evangelical potestants? I dont wish to just jump into a church i dont agree with because if i leave it will look kinda bad.

@hell_hound7 you'll find something, keep looking. I wasn't trying to hassle you so I hope it didn't come off that way. When I see people mention they feel beyond salvation even if they don't mean it I get worried cause I seen bad results following that. I do think our relationship with God is very personal so we got to do what we can to get closer. Whichever works for us. That can be tough to figure out. Keep going though.

Yeah no i completely understand, i wasnt necessarily saying i felt beyond salvation. Thats just the Devil's intent. He wants you to think God will abandon you so you can fall in line with his plan. I was like that, the whole reason why im so active now regarding this is because like i said i "fell out" with God. He kept putting these challenges in my life and they werent really making sense to me. I didnt outright abandon religion but i got angry and i felt my faith suffered following. But as i was speaking to my fiancee about being beyond salvation i was given a sign. This was sort of like the first time God has given me something i can absolutely say without a doubt he was listening. I mean he has done stuff for me before dont get me wrong but it was more drawn out things that happened over the course of months to years. This one was instant. So i get it this sort of thinking is bad. Thats why i believe so heavily in this and wish others to get that confirmation that i have. Maybe somrthing i share will resonate with someone as God has intended. That he may use me to get his message out. But this isnt me claiming i have a higher purpose. When God feels i am ready if at all he will provide me with the opportunities