I'll help you out, vent here.

@Aleph - 10 look within yourself

@Aleph - 10 Dont bring him into this, respect his name

after assaulted two family members and being arrested shes back now and my stress has gone up exponentially guess i got so use to not having to worry about anything with her gone im not use to the stress from being in the living room all i wanted to being confined in my room once again least im more confident than before, not as scared as i was now that i know i have my mom on my side now just really hard to feel trapped i guess and then because my brother isnt dropping the charges against her theres the issue if im going to have to take care of my nephew again? and shes already been in jail previously for assault so what if its a jail sentence of years? (which if there is any shred of justice she will be away for a long time) i also think my mother should keep the charges against her too but who knows, she said that because my sister never even apologized and instead insisted she was also at fault (like really? iv never met someone so entitled in my life) she was going to keep the charges but now idk if it means that she isnt near me ill happy choose to care for her kid in exchange, in a heartbeat i would i mean, hes a good kid, goes down for naps good and is easy to calm down (even if he is a picky eater) least when i was taking care of him i held myself to a strict schedule and i was in the living room all day and i could go and come as i pleased anywhere i just idk my life is hard edit because im not done ranting: and now im sleeping all day just to avoid her, so shes gone and i can move around upstairs freely i dont want to fucking do that but its that or fucking having to sit in my room til i hear shes not in the kitchen or wherever i need to be

@Lamby, hope your situation gets better. Maybe try to be out of the house as often or as much as you can. And talk with your family about how you are feeling and see if they can do anything to help you with this. Having to take of a kid is not easy at all, so maybe make it the entire family's problem and not only yours. Take care, dear. (idk if I was supposed to "help you out" or pretend I did not see your comment and go directly into venting mode) I really want to have a degree and a better job. But I feel like I am asking the impossible here. It sucks to feel trapped. Oh well.

Lamby, Honestly, your nephew is the most important factor in all of your situation. That poor kid didn't ask to be born to such an imbecile. You sound like your doing as best as you can under such circumstances and yeah, the whole situation is unfair. But, personally, if your sister is truly such a shit person (By, default, a shit parent.), I'd look into gaining custody of your nephew or atleast hopefully a family member will. Again, shit sucks, but be strong for your nephew, he's fresh to this shit show of a world.

i guess it was both? i cant leave the house as i have no drivers license (no judgey plox) and no where to go, plus im agoraphobic so even if i did have somewhere to go i doubt id be able to go there alone when my sister was in jail and rehab my mom was suppose to take over on her days off but it ended up her just helping ouit every now and then (hed run into her room and hed be out of my hair for a bit) but i still ended up making his meals, changing his diapers, and dressing him and putting him to bed occasionally i could sneak in a nap and shed wake me up when it was time to get him up from his nap shes the only other family i have (aside from my brother but he refuses to even be in the same room as my nephew for some reason? idk hes a gross human in his own rank) and she already works so hard at her job i dont mind taking care of him on her days off because to be honest looking after him wasnt all that hard, like i said hes a really good kid @yass to be honest shes not really a bad parent oddly enough? like shes an abusive alcoholic and she has screamed at him before for just crying (fucking horrible i know, and no excuse for that thats abuse) if shes sober and on her meds shes really good with him, playing with him and really spoiling him (i was pretty strict when i took care of him, only one piece of candy a day and only one cup of juice a day and only a bottle before night time, where as she kinda just gives him what he wants.) if she was sober and on her meds shed be a good mom i think. she really does love him a lot. (once saying if it wasnt for him shed have killed herself already, which im sure was fun for my mom to hear) i know hes the true victim in this, kids above all need consistency and having his mother come in and out of his life for even for those few months must have taken its toll on him. hes such a good kid, so easy to take care of but when she went to rehab you could tell he was irritated. like hes not even 2 years old but he knew something wasnt right and he was really oddly fussy. and soon shes going to go back to jail (i cant foresee her getting away with assault if my brothers not gonna drop the charges because of the previous charges that shes had in the past for assault, and assault on family members isnt taken lightly) and i worry about how hes going to be with her gone again i struggle with knowing i should look after him again when shes in jail and wanting him to go live with her family in new york. i know itll be so hard on him to have to go to live with a family hes only ever met a handful of times instead of the home hes grown up in. but looking after him is a full time thing and im leaving the country this year for a month. its just a horrible situation for everyone, but mostly him.