Questions about loneliness

yeah i have a tendency to be really quiet even when tryna scream its in talking volume, i also have a tendency to bottle up my feelings and sometimes "vent" although not usually

Yeah, I can relate to how you feel! I used to be super afraid to talk about my feelings (I was depressed because of a really bad heartbreak) It was embarrassing for me to talk about it because no one knew how I felt for the person. Venting definitely helps! Just to get it off your chest so it isn't so built up.

so how should i break it to my parents? should i just casually go up to them and say "ah dad i know you are just chillin but i am depressed"

Tell them at the right time for you. Not when they are stressed or when you're mad at them. Find a calm time and tell them you need to talk. Everyone's family is different so I can't tell you how to go about it. I told my mom because I am very comfortable with her so I was able to bring it up rather randomly.

i am thinking of telling a friend but... even though i trust him and think of him as a good friend, i am still feeling that i should not send it. whenever i am about to press enter i think that it is stupid and that i can get over this on my own, even though i am pretty sure that i cannot. it feels like everyone i talk to except for that friend group is fake and that they do not like me. It feels like everyone that I love (as in has a crush on) hates me. that last part is because i have only been rejected and later on some of those girls have gone out with my best friends and that did not help. holy crap this is turning into a rant

That is completely ok, I am fine with ranting. I can relate, a guy I was deeply in love with suddenly started ignoring me and treating me terrible. My grades were horrible and I had shut out a lot of my friends. I can totally relate to this, don't worry about ranting! I am a very stubborn person and want to do everything on my own. When it came to depression I believed that help was weak. It is not. It is stronger to ask for help than it is to ignore it and let it ruin things for you.

that little rant just made me feel worse and the fact that i am not turning to a friend but the internet is making my self esteem drop... well lolax, thank you for trying to help me. atleast now i know that i dont need to be lonely. :) also please do not take that in a creepy way (i have like 0 self confidence in my texts so i always say something like "please do not take that in a bad way" even though it might be an argument or something.....)

Don't let it, it's fine to talk to people. I can relate because I was (and still can be) an unemotional shut off emotionally person. Talking to people (even online sometimes) scares me. It took a while for me to even feel confident talking on here. Sometimes talking to someone you don't know personally helps because you might be more nervous to talk to a friend because you worry more about what they think.