Vent

There is one thing I can't stand. Hatred. I don't understand hating someone. I have been through so much shit in my life but do not harbor hate to anyone who has done this to me. So why hate each other? What is the actual point of hating each other. You all used to be so close, now you all cannot stand the sight of each other and if fucking breaks my heart. I hate, hatred..

I hate it when someone betrays my trust. Just why? When I trust you with my life and you betray that trust, it fucking hurts for a long time.

I hate when you go out to run an errand, then end up doing the little things you were going to do and forget the big thing that you actually was supposed to do..

your fucking welcome last fuckin time i buy you anything look forward to 0 xmas presents with your fucking name on them

I shouldnt have to think about not going.... I should go to say goodbye... But i dont know if i can handle seeing her again. they just stopped yelling i dont want them to come back... but if i dont go i know i will regret it, its my one chance.... It wont bring me peace but at least i can say a proper goodbye.... Thats some kind of closure right? Will i feel better if i go? I hope if i do she wont be such a bitch... Its not my fault, i can finally tell myself that, it wasnt my fault. right? Why does family have to suck so much... Why cant i just say goodbye in peace? Oh right cause your a cunt and have to blame other people instead of yourself... I hope thats whats going on... I hope it wasnt my fault. If i dont go tomorrow dont blame me... if i do, im sorry if i leave early, but i really do miss you... I really did care