Maiotaku Timely Confessions

>I'm pretty sure niwa said taken on her profile a week or less ago. Am I the only one who saw that? That's when I was cosplaying daggerfella and forgot to change it back

#818 (edited) MIO = **** Laughing man = GOD

#819 You ever get that feeling of dejavu

#820 How does one go about fixing a jealousy issue? With previous people they kinda shut me out and I keep getting led to places mentally and emotionally I didn’t wanna be in. Getting lied to with half lies and the constant feeling of neglect has kinda messed me up... Like even though said person isn’t/never was mine it just sucks that I’m holding onto nothing yet they’ve been aware for a long time. They’ve been fine but I haven’t from what I notice when I’m not talking to them, like they chat for bit when somethings up but then are gone. It’s hard to move on but it’s hard breaking this clingyness of not wanting to be alone. I don’t want to burden the next person that I end up liking out of neediness or come off that way. I find that even if I did find someone I like which I may or may not have, that I don’t wanna just complain and be all clingy and needy to any degree and just focusing on loving them. I was thinking maybe I’ll just wait till I get better, maybe if I just self focus... yet even after doing that for a while by the time I get done how do I know said person I like in trying to move on will be around anymore? I don’t know, I just don’t like impeding on another person with my problems cause it’s unfair. It’s why I’m afraid to confess, especially with how I am I expect a no once they learn more about who I am but on the off chance if they get to know me and say yes I’m also afraid that it won’t last cause I’ll just end up being cumbersome.

#821 I don’t know if anyone will ever like like me. I’m an advocate for learning about the other person as whole for myself personally and I’ll tell them any detail about me even the bad ones and all that. I don’t like being overly secretive and I would like a person to honestly know all the facts before they like me cause I wouldn’t want them to feel later on they made a mistake. It’d be better to stay friends. Though this has slightly lead to being viscously afraid of judgment yet knowing other people have gone through way harder things and have done way more messed up things but they learned and came out okay. Yet here I am stuck in a rut making me always afraid to say I would like someone.

#822 I keep getting the unrequited love feels. All I ever do is like people and interact with them yet in my head and heart I know they’ll just be friends or acquaintances and I only like specific kinds of people. I think I hide myself pretty well under the guise of bad jokes. Sadly I do subconsciously drop hints but I’d rather not. It’s not that I don’t have courage to confess I’m just hesitant cause I’m afraid of getting hurt cause of previous reasons so I’ve just confessed to 0 people all this time. The heart aches and I get over it though it’d be nice if I could tell it to someone one day. I mean I have onetime but I got a no and got closure but I still have this horrid admire from afar don’t say anything habits.

#823 How does one love? How do I like people? Shit don’t make damn sense!? Ahhhhhhhhhhh *screaming intensifies*

#824 I wish that I didn’t like girls that give off the doting,mother, or older sis kinda vibe.