Dealing with my feelings

So I recently moved out of state. It's been almost 2 weeks since I've moved and today just really hit me hard. Crying on and off, feeling lonely, missing my family and friends. I feel really helpless and useless because I'm having to rely on my bf for almost everything till am able to land a job. Which I'm still looking. Im not one to rely on others so for me it's kind of hard to do so. Sorry if non of this makes any sense just wanted to kind vent out how I feel.

So wacha talking about i dont understand is it a crush if it is tell the guy but guys dont like ----------------------------------------------distance relationships idk i just typed to help out idk what you meant since ive been single my whole life i think that was it

It makes perfect sense. We all, well most, have a sense of pride and having to rely on someone else as an adult, that tends to make one feel useless/weak or like a dead weight. However, there's absolutely no need to feel bad. I mean, if you can't rely on your partner, what's the point of the relationship? I'd bet that he cares enough about you, that it's not nearly the burden you seem to think it is. If he cares for you, he's there to also support you and help you. Would you do the same for him? I'd bet you would. Just know that he cares, wants you to be secure and happy. I'd advise that if you haven't already, bring this up with him and if he's any kind of man, he'll comfort/reassure you. It's scary moving into new areas and not being fully prepared. Having someone who loves you enough to be a helping hand, that's a wonderful thing that many don't have the luxury of. Let him be your strength until he needs you to be his.

What you've done now is a good first step, you really shouldn't keep feelings like that all to yourself, talk to friends, people who wouldn't mind lending you a shoulder.You shouldn't dwell too much on the past.It's good to remember and miss close ones and old friends but it's bad to let it destroy your life, plus it's not like you're never gonna get in contact ever again, you can still message them online or talk on the phone.As for your boyfriend, don't let it get to you, i'm sure he's happy to give you a helping hand when you're in a situation like this Hope you get well soon x