I fell in love with a sadist and expected him not to hurt me

Your right King of Perverts :) He made that side of me come out and now i know i am a masochist like it seems. Your totally right i m craving that teasing and the dark figure. I have been crying every single day this month before and after work :/ So i guess i am already in that place. I really wish for him to keep touching me . And I wish I could go back to him I would do everything. I was already begging him on my knees outside his door but he did not react. Is that how someone like me is supposed to be ? Is it that hurtful to be a masochist ? I mean the pain in my soul, its incredible. I see his face everywhere and when i close my eyes those special moments pop up before my eyes :/ Every breath since he left is painful.

shit girl, sorry to hear you fell in love with someone like that i mean just remember your better off without him

I'm sorry. I recently got dumped this month by someone I thought wasn't going to leave. So I know how you feel. So I'm just trying to find stuff to distract myself so I don't think about it. ♥

In any relationship where you're so invested, so wrapped up in the other person, even obsessed it will always be difficult to get over them. It feels like it's all over, That he's the only one, and that no one else could ever compare. But that's just not true in the slightest, It's not hard to find a guy who's rough in bed, trust me, and there's even less who are afraid to experiment. Not only that, but the guy left you. Ditched you. You deserve better. Just do things you enjoy or used to enjoy that you may of gotten too busy to do. Spend time with friends and family. Keep doing that, and sooner or later, there's be a day when you realize, you haven't thought of him in weeks once. He's not the last, and Certainly not the best considering his actions. Keep your chin up, As much as it feels like, this isn't the end of the world.