I fell in love with a sadist and expected him not to hurt me

:'C I'm sorry to hear that.. What happened?? And I think it might be a little hard for a sadist to not hurt someone sometimes. When someone is sexually sadist it sometimes usually that part of them bleeds into their personality slightly where sometimes they can be emotionally sadist too and do some out of question things to hurt the other person just to see them hurting for them = proves that they kind of have importance and significance in the other person's life and that's important for them to constantly know. I'm not saying this is with everyone who is sadist I'm just saying from what I observed before of people with that kind of nature. I'm not sure what happened but does he really honestly never want to see you again or is he just trying to hurt you just to see if you really care about him so much ? I dunno it can be hard to tell.

Could be, maybe, just perhaps... She's calling him that because of the pain being inflicted NOW and not meaning it in the sexual sense. Just my two cents. Otherwise, it really does not make sense for causation here. It just sounds like venting the frustration of a broken heart...I could be wrong.

Hey you lovely souls, first of all thanks for your comforting words and for worrying about me . I dont exactly understand what happened either :( he broke up with me, said he is no good for me and he cant do this anymore :( That s how he hurt me , even though he seemed so honest and promised to never abandon me . I am overhelmed of how much I found myself liking his sadistic features in bed. That was absolutely not the problem and more than feeling pain it all felt so gentle and exciting . Thats the point. I cant stop thinking of what he was doing with me and i kind of got pretty hooked more like addicted. That dark smile and eyes made me do everything willingly for him. Sadly thats the thing, I want him to keep teasing me and figure about what he is going to do next time with me when i see him. What he liked was really special there wont be ever a guy like this in my life again. And I wont be able to do those things with anyone ever again. he just cut off all strings and hasnt answered the phone for almost a month. After just making me fall for him so deeply and given everything i possibly could to him he just dissappeared like we had never met. I dont know who to talk to about it so I guess thats the reason I wrote it down here :/ Guess he was the person i trusted the most . Not only with my body. Thank you for the website recommondation i am a listener on there <3 And thank you for your well wishings you are adorable :D

Believe it or not, you can find better. If he was the end all be all and thought the same of you, you'd still be together. You'll never find the same, but you might just find someone who is equally committed and in love with you. Really, now is the time to focus on yourself. Focus on self growth, job, school, friends, family, ANYTHING that allows you to grow as a person.

I don't even know where to start with this and as the king of perverts it is hard not to say something because the fact that you were right now are going through one of the stages of being not just a masochist but also somebody that is wanting that feeling of not just pain but also that dark figure. Like I know that a lot of people here can understand that she's probably a masochist and by she I mean you as I'm not trying to be mean or anything but you want him to tease you you want him to please you but at the same time you can't have him anymore so you are feeling this loneliness that one of my friends went down and I do not want somebody to go down that same road where you're crying yourself to sleep wanting him to touch you and be in the same bed as you and then end up going back with him and just doing what he says and not arguing with it like a long-lost puppy. That's what masochist do.