Vent

@ithurts I feel that. I’m an atl hoe and abused the fuck out of lean as a teen. I know I did damage to my heart so I am scared to push myself physically too.

@ithurts do you take any prework out or stuff like that? Maybe try working iut without it. I have rhe same issue too tho with not knowing my limits. I will go from couch potato to wanting to run a whole 3 miles at max speed. By the end of it my heart wants to pop put my chest.

Ever since i came back things have been different....i dont really find joy in anything anymore. Or maybe it was just building up to this? I made my final stand in life, my last attempt at happiness and i was just let down. Expectations crushed, hopes shattered, dreams ruined. I left here with so much hope things would change and look up and gained nothing but sadness, anger and regret. Maybe its my fault for expecting the best scenario in the worst possible situation. Guess thats what they call a reality check. Honestly how can hell be much worse than this? All we do here is suffer.