Depression and suicide.

I was pretty suicidal in high school, it's a miracle I'm still here today. I still think about it occasionally to this day, but not as much... I still get depressed as well.

i have depression but i don't really notice it because im busy dealing with other mental issues. as for suicidal urges, almost constantly, but that would be an effect of borderline personality disorder. i just live with it.

Used to have it pretty bad and its probably still there to an extent but i have learned to bury and ignore depressing and suicidal thoughts by mindlessly playing video games, watching anime, browsing the internet ect. c:

Yuppers. Been dealing with both for as long as I can remember along with a crap ton of anxiety to the point where my chest hurts a ton and it's almost impossible to breathe when things get real bad and a mood disorder (the psychiatrist that diagnosed me didn't specify as to which one) which REALLY makes everything even more fun to deal with. Although what really triggered it more than anything was after high school where pretty much every possible bad thing that could happen happened around the same time (dropped out of college for the first time, my at the time girlfriend and I broke up, couldn't get a part-time job despite how many resumes I handed out, parents pressuring me constantly about several things, condescending family, friends starting to drift apart, etc.) and I just kind of lost it and became a shut-in for a good while as the voices in my head just got worse and worse and the urge to hurt myself (something I had only considered doing once in high school but stopped myself before I could leave a mark) or kill myself just got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore and attempted to do so on several occasions (I had several plans including drowning myself in the nearby lake, hanging, staying outside during storms and hoping a tornado would sweep me away or I'd get struck by lightning which in hindsight wasn't the most well thought out one, but I really didn't care, overdosing on meds to drift off quietly, and a few others). I can't say things are much better now, but I'm still trying to put myself out there and slowly improve my life so things are alright or at the very least a heck of a lot better than they were. (Even if sometimes I'll slink back into that mindset and lose it again and again even at the drop of a hat.) If nothing else it's good to talk about this stuff when I can.