Depression and suicide.

I don't feel anything anymore.I don't exactly know when i lost my feelings. i felt nothing as i look at my mum cry or when the the person who believed in me that i could become a great basketball player died. Not a shed of tear or feelings. i just keep moving forward, believing that i will get to that place.....

Have had it since I was a little kid. I've just learned to deal with it, it's my neutral state now. Sometimes it goes too deep into scary thoughts, and other times I'm happy. Also imma be the cynical piece of shit here. But I'm pretty sure most "depressed" people don't know what real depression is. And others could fix it, by getting their life back on track. It's only a certain amount of people who will suffer depression no matter what kind of life they have.

I wish i could die right now. I wish i was brave enough to kill myself. I hate myself so much. I wish i was brave enough back then to kill myself. Maybe i'll just get it over with and kill myself tonight when everyone is asleep

Tohru, eat your favorite food while thinking about all the things you're looking forward to in the future. How great will Breath of the Wild 2 be? How great will it be when there's a VR Pokemon adventure 15 years from now?

Tohru. Don't please. You are not thinking clearly. I have seen the pain suicide brings. It is a quick way out that causes more pain after the fact than you are aware. Your friends. Your family. They will all miss you dearly. Sure it is hard now but you will never regret the choice not to do it. I am not just saying this. I nearly did it myself. I had a rough time in my life. I never had the strength to go through it, even as i held a knife to my throat. I couldn't do it because with all the pain i was going through, i couldn't wish it on my loved ones. It took me years. But I don't regret not giving up. Stay strong. It will get better. It will be better. Just keep strong. Never. Give. Up. Because when you do not only you lose everything but so do those closest to you. That includes rhe online friends that care for you. Don't forget about them either. Live. You won't regret it. Life is beautiful. It gets better. You are so young and full of potential. Be strong. Because at the end of this road, you will be stronger than before. A true star in the darkness. Don't burn out. Keep shining. You have so much to bring to this world than you are aware of yet. Keep shining in the darkness.

Do yourselves a favor. Go to your computer, head to adult swim, go watch Rick & Morty. You're welcome. Please, stay strong, don't say such things to yourself. We all have been through hell and I am no different to all of you. Depression does things to us. In my case, my ex broke up with me without saying a word, fucked my FB reputation, ppl turned against me and I ramble one. But what I want you to know is that, everyone is different in their own way, and that is a good thing. As I always say to my friends, "It is not about them nor their personal opinion that defines you, it is yourself and yourself only. You are your own master and you are the creator of your own universe." And if it makes you better, I sliced a good portion of my palm last week due to me being a dumbass, had to get some stitches, it cost me a whopping 400$ for that. If you need someone to consult to, you can leave me a message and I'll be ready to lend an ear when you're ready to talk. Cheers. P.S -Jeesus Christ man, Rick & Morty is love man! Go watch it.