You're Unattractive

Too sarcastic, too slim, stubborn, anxiety, depression. All of us are ugly and beautiful at the same time, it just depends on the person seeing you since it's all subjective.

I'm paranoid and constantly aware of my surroundings to the point of making escape and self defense plans with every new environment I'm in. *thinking"hmm there's a corner over there I could have my back to.... And I have a pen in my pocket if things really go south."

Mostly, I am fat. If I was skinny and had some muscle mass, I think I would be damn fine. I'm not even kidding. Aside from that, I can be a bit sheepish in unknown situations and I dare you to try to get me to initiate a conversation with someone I don't know.

I think that people aren't used to my personality or approach, so they turn me away. It's either that or they can't tell what race I am and give up on trying to act like "they speak my language". I know English ya know. Seriously, I get all these "Hola chiquita" and "Namaste" crap when new people want to talk to me. I can also be kinda bold.... a little too much for men's liking. I know that guys like dumb girls because they're easier to get and let them do whatever sexually. I on the other hand am a huge tease and won't let no one get in my pants... which is probably a huge turn off... (Just like my entire rant)

But what's awesome about that is it makes you more interesting. And I get the whole language thing. Half the time at work I get people struggling to talk to me in Spanish asking for directions, I chuckle and troll them saying I don't speak Spanish. Most of the time they just say "oh thank god, please help me I'm lost"