Is it Stockholm Syndrome?

yes there is definitely not something healthy going on regards to your feelings it sounds like the classic 'hes not all bad' mentality of an abusing relationship my advice? please stay away from him, hunny you dont need someone like that your a strong woman!

Even abusive relationships if you still loved them its not going to disappear cause its over, they were important to you, but even if you have those feelings and wanting it, doesn't mean its what you deserve. Not gunna white knight or anything, the nice could be amazing but in my opinion if someone is willing to be abusive to you then they dont love you in the same way you love them.

When an individual is dating another individual, he/she needs to be upfront about personal issues, and tell each other anything that might be problematic.

i've had something similar to this, although things didnt get physical. i loved someone so much that i only saw the good in them, i figured they could do no wrong..its just these little things but if that went away they were perfect. it was just the love making me blind, they werent nice at all though. in fact they were horrible to me and treated me poorly and i think thats the case here. you might just love him so much you think he is a good person. but he really isnt and i guarantee if you fell out of love with him you would see for yourself. no man who lays their hand on a woman is "nice" even deep down. cuz deep down if you loved someone enough hitting them would make you feel bad. its the same with my siblings. sometimes i wanna punch them but i dont because deep down i love them no matter how annoying they are. i think you should really try and think about things and see if the "good side" is really worth putting yourself through that abuse. if he is willing to change then go for it, if he continues leave him. no reason at all for anyone to lay their hand on a girl and especially a nice one such as yourself. i dont think you deserve it.

What I did to cut all of my feelings away from my past lovers was.. to poise myself with ill feelings. I made us hate eachother even if my strong feelings remained. Good to see you back on track. Not many include myself has the ability to make our lives better so swiftly. Even today I question if my decisions are right.. Sometimes I wish someone out there would reach me but as I am now, the problem is not others but myself c: Regardless I don't want anyone to walk the same path as me. I hope you'll find what you're looking for.

First off I just read your fist post You have just a good heart. The solutions are clear. To end it all up with a block and all the stuff. But I guess the problem is that your boyfriend thinks he can do whatever he want and everything is under his control. My advise is just to talk to your boyfriend if you still see hope in this relationship. I know from your writing you are still inlove with him and you also talked with him, so there are not that many solution. The first solution in my opinion is to talk with him about all that again, how you feel when he violents you, that you like him but also that doesn't work like he wants. If he doesn't or won't understand you, than the only good choice for your psychological and physical health is to forget him. I know it's hard and easy to say. If you don't know how you do it I recommened your favorite hobby, the world wide web and spending time with your friends. It's hard at beginning but time is a powerful medicine. Another way to let someone go or just stabilize your feelings and mood are Hospitals with real experts. Every docs advise is better than some strangers advise from the internet, most cases. Keep ya head up, you're young.