Confessions

I actually do like Hawaiian pizza (cheese, pineapple and ham) It has some sweetness from the pineapple and saltiness from the ham. I find that contrast actually adds some complementary between the two flavour. Of course, I would not say it is my favourite type of pizza, but I do eat them. I am aware of the hate regarding to this; I even saw Gordon Ramsay hates the idea... This will be my biggest confession. https://thumbs.gfycat.com/PessimisticZigzagDwarfrabbit-max-1mb.gif

I confess i found 2 new things to dislike. Ups and the state of Illinois. You mean to tell me i can get my package moved from NC to Il in one day but cant get it to leave goddamn hodgkin Illinois to saint anne Illinois for 2 whole days?

I often wonder if I'm experiencing things as their happening or if I'm actually an 80 year old man laying in a nursing home trapped in a fit of Dementia or Alzheimer's. Then my thoughts trail and I wonder if my god is actually just an old man with Dementia dreaming us all and as his brain fades further into the abyss so does all that makes sense in this world. My mind lingers here, allowing this to be a possibility for a moment. Do the prayers of this person's dream people keep him from slipping faster, but the fact that they are unable to help in any direct way cause us not to humble ourselves to this being, ensuring its demise? I let this idea die completely as a new more interesting thought drifts in from where ever ideas are born. Wouldn't it be more horrific if, instead of world conquering super intelligent aliens existing in the vast expanse of space, there were only us? Alone a ball of dirt drifting through space, for a purpose we could only just imagine. Would we try to spread existing life? Would it matter if we did, knowing the universe will end? I snap out of it to realize maybe nothing matters, maybe I pray to a demented old person, maybe I'm alone in the universe, but I'm ok with that. I then eat my dinner, go to sleep later, and dream of all the what ifs I didn't get to think about while being awake.