Confessions

I confess I dont reject anything. Was weird in school and never appreciated. I didnt know how to be a cool kid and I still tried. I bullied and fight everyone and my biggest victim is my best Friend now who supports me through my complete life since 11 years. Unfortunatly I always had good grades except in english. Noone wants to accept that and called me weird and dumb. I never looked up to someone, because I knew I would never be like the others. After school I was close to get one of the best degrees in Germany. I quitted university and end all friendships because I was sick. Why Everyone wanted me to be the successful? My mom cried if I told her that I dont accept my life. Everything what I wanted was to Drink, smoke and a life Without any pressure. My family called me a failure, but as a classy cold Person I never cared what other ppl think. Soon I lost everything and the result was that my goals changed drasticly. If suicide was an Option than I didnt wanted to do it by my own. I joined the army and since than I feel better. I cant ignore the fact that I am depressive, still weird and confusing but I learned what responsibilities means. I felt how death felt like by a shameless physical hard training and know how much loyality and trust for real means. I am just happy everything went well, even if I was a horrible Person.

I confess I was just told I look a lot like this girl https://assets.wonderlandmagazine.com/uploads/2016/05/Anna-Straker-1.jpg

I confess my fav as a kid was Starfire c: Also cuz I had a crush on Robin soooooo. I liked that Starfire wasn't white either. http://static.tumblr.com/5631b2ffbbb9c98cd4f1ac181cd1ebcb/2aakubz/hIEmniuwp/tumblr_static_starfire.gif Her strength and the contrast with such a great sweet and wise personality was my hype back then.

i confess after binging on anime i talk like a weeb >3> "ohayo!" "arigato gozaimasu" "un" "ne?" "nani?"

I confess I am actually an extra terrestrial/dimensional from the future here to guage if this planet is suitable for my species to inhabit..... we steal lawn gnomes.