So im Single now, kinda

Weird? Mehhhhh... Sorta kinda not. She cheated on me, was argumentative because evidently one is supposed to take depression into account rather than maturity, actions or a lack of her EVER wanting to communicate... I stayed with her despite being cheated on, I too "believed" her apology. But, let's get real. If she cheats, she doesn't care or certainly doesn't love. I had to figure things out too. We could've been friends, but I got tired of constant bullshit and her lack of being able to even remotely "adult". I rightfully gave her attitude after she said she "owed" it to her self to leave me for another guy. Yes, we mutually broke up at that point, but I still felt it wasn't right how she came to that conclusion while trying to convince me that she cared or how I was treated for 1 1/2 yrs. That wasn't who she cheated on me with, just an old friend of her's who was finally single and she just happened to rekindle old feelings. It's all good though, they didn't last five months despite all the "lovy" bs and last I heard(from her), she was back to her old ways of random dudes and drinking. Kind of funny to me, even though I honestly don't wish ill will upon her.

I've had a relationship sort of end the same way although we arent friends i still had feelings for her and they werent going away but she seems to have long since moved on with her life and i felt like ots better if we just didnt talk. she and i were pretty good for a while but then our relationship was sort of rocky. Sometimes i would be ignored cuz i said something or did somerhing that upset her and i would apologize cuz ik im not perfect and thats what i was trying to be for her but im guessing it wasnt enough. She was distancing herself from me and i wanted to know why. It wasnt until a month before we broke up she told me she met someone i didnt quite understand what was going on all i know is i was jealous of her being around him. I've done so much for her sacrificed so much to be with her but yet she spends more time hanging with another guy all she would do is talk about him and i felt heartbroken because i knew what was gonna happen. I finally confronted her about this guy and told her to choose either me or him cuz its obvious she loves one of us and in my mind ik it wasnt me. she denied liking him but it was clear she did. She told me it was better if we broke up and thats what i did i broke up with her cause its clear thats what she wanted. She said we could start over but thats not what i wanted. I didnt want to wait around possibly until she was finished having fun with him then come crawling back when it doesnt go her way.

A heart broken from love is the sweetest of pains. Ain't nothin' quite like it. Besides, it's worth the potential heart break to me. Pros and cons, always pros and cons.