Random thoughts...

Body dysmorphia is hitting me bad today, using it as motivation to try harder working out this week. Finished leg day but couldn’t shake the feeling of not wanting to look in the mirror as much as possible. It’s like I keep seeing the old me over and over again.

There was a day I was almost dead. I was a teen on a 4 wheeler. I fell down a cliff it was so dusty. I tumbled felt like ever and ever. I finally put my feet down on a grip . Then I discovered I was inches away from a short stick getting ready to jab me in my neck

He is the crazy homeless person spouting about how God is a nazi anime girl, and how he invented the polio vaccine when he was 5 but never got credit. But with aura ngl, the type you give $20 cause you know he will do something cool with it even if it is drugs...

I'm the creep looking through your window tho tbf. Stop closing your blinds plz and look at the pics I printed out that im holding up to the glass.

Met someone today who gave me some outside perspective on how far along I am body building. He is a big guy and he told me “Ngl you always are coming here and I noticed you lift the same weights I do now, and I said to myself “DAMN this guy strong af”, and I finally wanted to say hi to also ask how you did it in 6-7 months while I have been lifting 3-4 years”. That I don’t look what I lift. That there are others in the gym who noticed me and labeled me “strong af”. All my life before this I was labeled weak, and pathetic. Ex patronized me for not being able to put her on my shoulders, or breathing hard carrying her bridal style. To have these strong men who put 75% or more of society to shame call me that…I want to cry happy tears because of it. I’m only a part of the way done and yet the feedback today has shown me so much potential I never knew I had.

Gather around lil dweebs! Tis time for some life lessons. I few months ago, I was applying for a new job. Did quite a few interviews. Imma be honest, my first few interviews were fucking ass! I wouldn't hire myself to run a goddamn lemonade stand! But as I went along. I got better and better, like a knife that's constantly getting sharpened mhmmm I became a master bullshittier. You gotta gargle the companies nuts in your mouf Me: oh yes sir! I love your company. *gargle gargle* I'm practically an expert, I use your application all time *gargle gargle*. (that was fucking lie btw, never used their shit in my entire life, but you gotta do what you gotta do) I'm oversimplifying things obviously. I also research the company and ram information into my puny little brain like nobodies business. Even though I've never used their shit, I give them enough info so that they think I've used their shit mhmmm, get me? No? Ok fuck off. So what's the lesson of the day boys and gurlz? Look both ways before crossing the street.

theres this guy on youtube that wants everyone to be perfect like him (i think hes a little bipolar). he gets mad at his fans if they say something. i just said "Some people are like 2stroke motor and some are like a 4 stroke motor. Or like a magnetic fridge or a normal fridge."