Confess how you feel

@Kid Well, I don't think that gonna work on me. Haha back to hold all the feels~

@mana feel like a bruh?

@Tai Bro date?

I loved this girl I met 4 years ago back in High School. I fell in love with her, because I could relate to her and her pain. I wanted to protect her, I thought. I didn't want her to feel alone anymore. But during the whole time I've known her, you can't change how someone feels. I was never good enough in her life and she kept chasing after people who gave her a rough time. I tried my best, and had my heart broken over... and over again. To this day, I still have feelings for her despite the hurt. It pains me to see her suffering, but I know there isn't much I can do. We became good friends, but not as close as I hope to. I feel that I may lose her someday when someone else enters her life. I had my chance to tell her how I felt but blew my chance and got friend-zoned. My past experience with relationships... they never end well for me. I got cheated by my first girlfriend after being hospitalized for a few weeks. During that time she spoke to my best friend and they hooked up behind my back. They backed out from my life and lost the only friend I had at the time.

i want to confess to my Ringo UNICORN chan sama like i always do on her wall but i miss her so bad and i feel sometimes her wall is not enough for my feelings. like i will explode for real XD XD i just want to shout all these things for her in every corner of MO and the world if only i can XD https://media3.giphy.com/media/6CBGoJnEBbEWs/200_s.gif i wrote my reasons why I love you while youre gone for your trip. I want to surprise you and see you happy when you come back so dont think Im creepy for doing this okay XD XD 1 - you saved my life a couple of times since we became friends here in MO. no one knows this except the two of us. for me your a true unsung hero. AND FOR THAT IM FOREVER GRATEFUL AND LOVE YOU PROBABLY FOREVER TOO (but your straight so ouch why) 2 - your family is so cute and your dogs are so cute. my Mum adores you and shes grateful to you too for looking out for me and she wants to meet you and stay with her in New York if you visit 3 - your gorgeous without being snobby or sneaky or fishing for compliments about it. you dont say "i dont have makeup on" or "i look ugly" like some girls who just want someone to disagree with them. coz you clearly dont need it YOU LOOK LIKE A BABYFACED ANGEL. your confidence in your beauty is in your humbleness about it 4 - you dont post photos here or just give out your facebook and skype here which makes me feel specially lucky and privileged and trusted like im the only one who has access to the worlds most secret best treasure 5 - your kind and honest and nice to everyone and never judgemental or mean. your family friends and officepeople irl knows this (I KNOW COZ I READ AND STALK EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING ON YOUR FACEBOOK). you inspire every person in your life to be better versions of themselves. i should know i changed so much for the better in the short time ive known you 6 - your wise and intelligent and smart without being condescending and flashy about it. you never made anyone feel your better than them for knowing all the things you know. you never judge anyone based on their problems or illness you just always listen and give proper help and advice. im sure im not the only MO person you helped 7 - your the same here in MO and irl which makes you the most trustworthy person ever coz you dont have to pretend at all AND WHY WOULD YOU NEED TO WHEN YOUR PERFECT RIGHT ?? 8 - you swim and dive like a badass mermaid and you look great in a bikini IM DROOLING and your exes are kicking themselves in the balls for sure 9 - you can memorize math and chemistry formulas easy like that dude from breaking bad. you can memorize scientific names of fishes and corals easy like i dunno charles darwin maybe 10 - your the rare combination of gorgeous, smart, kind, honest THAT NEVER EXISTS !! are you an anime chanracter ?? coz you said your not a unicorn !! so i bet your an anime character !! last - even if you never like me romantically like i do you i would be happy just to have you as my friend forever coz i felt it the first time i talked to you that you would be an important part of my life until i die i just know it

@Erica-chan Hey, Erica. Thank you. I really don't know how to respond properly -- you know how I suck at taking public confessions and grand gestures. But, you also know I've always been honest with you. Reading this got me a bit emotional, really. I didn't make a list, but I will respond to you privately about this. There are things I want to say that's only for you, okay? Again, thank you. :)

Ringo chan please dont cry okay ?? you cry i cry !! XD XD http://67.media.tumblr.com/8bc5800f3b5a1ffe67c7c0eadd647122/tumblr_nkkf9vcGXi1se818yo1_500.gif i still love youuuuu

https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/b8/2a/58/b82a58839975cdbc7d07917bc0c3ef88.jpg Chocolate milk senpai is love Chocolate milk senpai is life

I got out of long 4 year relationship and yet it's hard for me to truly let go. She was 3 years older and also a teacher for me at a point in my life. She meant the world but my own destructive personality couldn't hold it together and we grew distant. If for one more time in my life I could tell my forever lost Senpai my feelings, it would be that I'm so sorry I put you through everything I did. I tried my hardest to keep you happy yet I couldn't hold true to my own words. I wish I could have been better to you. I wish I could have grown up and given you everything you ever wanted in this world, but I never had the resources to do so. I can't ask for a second chance because I know you're better off, But I only wish I could have had a true last goodbye unlike the sad and pathetic farewell we had. I sorry Senpai. I wish you the life you always wanted. Something Better. Somewhere, without me.

I thought I would have something to say by now, but there's still no one due to distance. Or I would of mentioned a person or two if they didn't live across the country from me. Well I still feel pretty freaking awesome anyway. So no worries.