Suicide

its tough to explain i talk to people to keep those thoughts my way of seeking help is talking bout it the problem with the ones who go through is they are afraid to say anything or talk about it because of people like xyonx I have a tendancy to speak what's on my mind talking about it helps me feel better call me a pathetic pity seeker or what have you but I seek help online on threads lime this because its easier talking to people who does understand

She doesn´t understand and I don´t understand. ;D Not everything can be solved online. Try to talk to some profesionals, family members or close friends. People you only know online are strangers and won´t give you the help that you need. ;) Go and find your salvation in the real world.

Levels? Do you seriously think we have levels? What the hell dude. Do you think I even care if someone is richer than me or not? If someone is more powerful? That isn't the case. Why are you wasting your time thinking about how other people wouldn't care if you die? Didn't you say you have 5 people that'd care if you do? Of course nobody else would care. Would anyone in this site truly suffer if I disappear? They wouldn't. They DON'T KNOW YOU NEITHER DO YOU KNOW THEM. OF COURSE THEY WOULDN'T CARE EVEN IF YOU ARE RICH OR NOT. Learn to appreciate those that are near to you instead of seeing how other people live their lives. You're busy with your own life so don't let it go to waste. Stand the fuck up and do your work. Poor people actually have better life than we do. I've seen many of my friends travelling the world with just a few dollars dude just make a dream and pursue it. Why do you care about anyone else? Who's telling you to do so? People are free to make choices and so do you, just don't do it while influenced. Do you seriously like people telling you what to do with your life because I don't. Do what they told you was impossible for you to do, because you'll know the satisfaction after you success over a thousand fails. Let me guess, you don't know that, right? You don't know how that feels, right? That's because you haven't tried hard enough. There is no such thing as better than you, there is just difference.

Oh, if you feel like you are prone to suicide, stay away from addictive substances. @Maria,"There is no such thing as better than you, there is just difference" well said. :)

First off jeez people its a metaphor dont take them literally and .aria you're right I have no clue not because I want to give up but because I'm forced to and Franky I'm not just speaking on my behalf as for not taking advise I need to see value in myself after 22 years of being put down at every turn and angel as far as the help goes as I said I'm speaking on my behalf on how I deal

http://i.stack.imgur.com/fiQBd.gif I just can't even care anymore.

I understood your reference Grim but one of the hardest things to swallow in life is that it's not fair. Nobody gets the same start, nobody has replica parents, and nobody has the exact same trek through high school, so on and so forth. Life is painful but sometimes it's great. If it were great all the time, we wouldn't know things like joy or happiness because everything would be a constant. Sometimes you have to be thankful for the pain you have so you can appreciate the joy. I think at this point though, the best thing you can do is not bring it to the internet. Some people can be helpful, sure, but usually you're going to encounter people who don't know you, don't care about you. That just shows the chinks in your armor and opens you up to attacks from trolls and assholes. I am a firm believer in therapy and counseling. Chances are you're going to get better feedback from someone that's educated in psychology than some stranger online.