can somebody help me?

well he is 20 and we were just supposed to watch netflix and chill (apparently i am the only one that didnt know what that meant) and i gave him my virginity. um i regretted it afterwards. but i also liked it alot and i didnt want to stop. so we just agreed to be casual sex friends. then after the first guy he beat up i thought maybe he wanted more but he insisted that he didnt want a relationship. but then he beat up the second guy i tried asking again but he just kept insisting that he wasnt ready for a relationship but he didnt want me to look at any other guys. i wouldnt mind being more with him if he would just tell me he wanted more. and if he would believe me when i tell him that i havent slept with anybody but him. im just really confused about everything and i feel really stupid

you think i dont know all this? and i havent been begging him for sex. we always use protection. i understand that are age difference is wrong for most people. and i know it is illegal but just until recently so was same sex marriage? and interracial marriage has only been legal since 1967. so i understand and respect your perspective and thank you for your commentary(opinion). but did you have to say that bella swan comment i mean i know i messed up but thats just mean.

i know and i am very happy that you took the time to try and help me with my problem. i just feel so confused about his behavior.

thats the plan. we are going to sit down to talk in the morning. i hope that maybe it ends with us being together in a relationship. if not then it will end with us not seeing each other anymore..