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U have to be willing to drop ur guard, put urself out there and take that chance. But at the same time, u while wanting and hoping for the best need to also brace urself for the worst possible outcomes, of course no one is ever fully ready for it, but u gotta be aware it all the same. I've learned that, i've shed many tears, i've felt the anger quell up inside me to the point i just wanted to wail on something until i would just collapse over in exhaustion, and i've ultimately chosen to move forward despite all the disappointments i've gone through. They are what made me who i am, and as bad as they were, im grateful for the person ive become here and now. U dont like who u are, then change, u dont like something about u specifically, change it, u see urself as broken in some way, fix it. Its not a simple process, most of the time its hard, but all it takes is the will to do it and taking that one little step forward.

you sound like my mom unless I can reset my brain like a computer I dont think any amount of anti vires can fix my problems call me crazy I guess and IDK trust issues all around neediness I'm hellish lonely I cant help it I just want to hold on the the guy I love and never let go I wish I could just be like Adam and Ev spending eturnaty with that one guy just me and him no one else... sigh but that's all a dream... of some crazy person... Xp ya... there's no one out there who would share my dream... and no I don't want to change it would just make me fake and cause me stress to be something I'm not I want some one who would want me and excepted me for what I am a freak so what if I'm jealous there are Billions of girls better looking then me + billions of fake girls who's looks can never be matched and I'm just some plain Jan... and so what I love to be loveable I am loyal I stick to the ones I love I want to be with them as much as possible... I have a lot of love to give and no takers... errrrrrrr I hate being the only one!!!!!! I'm different I'm flawed I want my matching pare ToT

Well people tell me i sound like an old soul trapped in a young guys body hahaha. Hey were all lonely on some levels, some more than others, hell i know i am one of those guys who had more people in his life, but im content in some facets with who i have right now. Im more grateful than anything to have people period. Trust issues and neediness can all be taken care of with the right person. I mean unless the apocalypse happens and u and some other guy are the only two people left on earth, well ur gonna have to settle for looking for someone out of the billions of people that are out there. No ur not crazy and no ur not a freak, ur a good woman who just wants to find someone to love her, ur lonely because u dont have that right now, but u have to stop beating urself up and stop calling urself flawed and get up and look for that other person. U can beat urself into oblivion, but all that serves to do is to say u have given up, which in ur case i dont think u should be anywhere near that, because u have alot to offer and u just need to put urself out there.

Everyone has flaws, shit they dont like about themselves, me included. the last relationship i was in, the girl she was flawed out the ass, i thought for one i could try and change her and make her stop feeling sorry for herself. She called herself moody, bitchy, immature, and childish, and yeah she was that and more. I looked past all that because underneath all that she was a good woman who if she really wanted to, could've been something great. Something u see as a negative about urself doesnt mean it has to be that in someone else's eyes and for that matter can be changed to a positive, all it takes is work. Ur a cute girl and like u said, u have alot of love to offer and ur loyal, its hard to find that in a woman these days, u just need to have faith in urself and put urself out there, thats what im doing, and u will find someone definitely. Have faith, there are takers out there, looking to bite on the line u got cast out, u will find ur matching pair, patience goes a long way and so does believing in oneself.

I want to sing XD hahaha yes I just have multiple personality's really my passion for every thing that happens to me can go far beyond most right now I am very happy talking to you later when we stop and I go to bed seeing my exs face well just piss or depress me but right now I am very happy and loving how much you are talking to me hm... now I'm lessening to Savage Garden

Being depressed about life so much won't help you move forward and find happiness. I get depressed a fair amount, in comparison to my other major emotions probably 40% of the time and mostly in connection with my relationships/love life not being as I would want and expect. I have days where I'm not happy and feel like I don't have a purpose, today being one, but for the most part I look forward to some goals I have and the friends that support me and enjoy being around me. I'm sure things will get better for you if you try seeing things in a more optimistic light and limit on the pessimism. ^^

Good point KitsuneRena. On top of that you really should stop posting so much negative stuff about yourself. Believe me it will get you nowhere. Plus you have to learn to love yourself before someone else can love you. The more you put yourself down the more other people will do it too. I get it, your upset with your life, but the best thing you can do is get up and move on. Nothing is going to change until you take the first step