What in life holds you back?

Yeah. Not getting Malaria is great and all, and when I went to Africa, that was put to the test. But EVERYTHING ELSE ABOUT IT sucks. like, a lot. There's waaay too many things I can't do cause of it. Pain, meds, docs, work, there's not many aspects that it doesn't fuck up.

Asthma, fear of failure/being a burden to my family, my family, my job, school loans, Asperger's Syndrome, and lack of friends/girlfriend. But I'm trying to kick my bad habits and I'm heading back to school in the fall of this year for the degree program i originally planned to do.

Having no confidence in myself has always been an issue in my life that holds me back from attempting better things in life.