What in life holds you back?

Well, whatever. You guys are forever changing your names and I'm not on here enough to keep up with it all hahaha. Still, sickle cell sucks but at least no malaria :/

Meister24, Totally agree. I'm slowly beginning to realize that. It's just my family has such high hopes for me(or, had?) being the only one to stick with college. I began to learn Portuguese, became fluent, then it's like "That's it? One language?" So I picked up some Italian, Spanish, and now German, and it's seemingly not enough to appease my family. And yet none have college degrees, and everyone speaks English. At this point, I almost have no choice but to become an affluent lawyer who rots away at his desk mumbling in several languages. Sadly, I just want to move to Brasil and become an author. Hope everyone here can learn to deal with what's been said and have a new thing that holds em back most.

I'd like to make friends but it looks like they want the pussy more than friendship. (o-o) I keep trying to make friends but it looks like they can only be female or I'll get hit on. Its sooooooo wrong. I don't even think I look pretty but apparently that's how it is. Sooo.. I'll trying to see whose in my area but wants to be friends since I have zero. ): In good news I saw my college has an anime club!!! :D I'm found this out last weekend and I'm super scared but hopeful I can find some friends so I don't have to be alone anymore!

I'm sure you will in that kind of environment. The thing is with me, I was a dick to those kind of kids(anime fans, gamers, generally normal people) when I was in highschool. So, automatically, me showing up to an anime club is seen as suspect. Also, my high school "pals" probably see me as a traitor. For example, this one woman I know thinks I purposely "act" smart because I like utilizing my grammar correctly when I speak. When I said last week I'm staying in to watch Dragon Ball Z my "friends" thought I was kidding.

Majority of my friends i mean real friends only have like 4? Maybe that? don't even know i watch anime. They don't know i'm a shut in nor do they know i'm a game addict. So i guess what i'm saying is, I am not really afraid of anything. I just feel that i would burden those around me. And it sure does seem like i do. Cutting ties off from the real world and only using the internet seems to be my best bet. I Thrive for social interaction. Id love it ever so much.