Social awkwardness?

I've always owed the title of being a social butterfly,and even though I may be sociable and be smooth while talking I get so freaking anxious and I want to cry out of nowhere. I have friends I've known for years and I still distant myself from them because I'm afraid they'll get tired of hearing me talk. Anybody else like this or...?

Only in a mild sense. When I really like a girl that I'm talking to I tend to be really self-conscious of what I say and self analyze myself too much. I overthink everything and worry too much.

I am a homebody/introvert and I can admit that I feel fine if I don't have anybody, my online friends are the best I'm more materialistic than anything and would rather have inanimate objects than actual human interaction I'm always the listener and observer in the class and don't get into stupid shenanigans I've never been to a party, not even a birthday party for another child I have anxiety and panic attacks when I'm in a large group, and CANNOT be in a mall by my self. It's too big with loads of people in there and it freaks me out.

Yeah...I was like that too...But I recovered after "certain" events happen...I am not perfectly cured, but I am way better than before

I'm very socially inept. I spent most of my life in my room playing video games. Not very conductive to improving social skills.

I can be both extroverted and introverted, but no matter what I am always nervous. Even on occasions when I'm not nervous, I will become nervous because I'm not nervous lol

Mmm... well when I was your age (does saying that when I'm only 24 make me sound old in soul?), I also found myself distancing myself from other students my age because I came to the sudden realization that I wouldn't see most of them again after the next 4 years flew by. As for wanting to cry whilst in the middle of talking, I'm not sure I could chock that up to anything besides maybe just plain old nervousness just manifesting itself (like a nervous laugh or motion of the body that occurs under certain conditions) As for you and your friends, if you're nervous about them not liking the amount of talk you usually do, then why not ask them if it bothers them or not? Communication maintains friendships and helps people understand one another so that we don't hurt each other as often. On another note, thanks for replyin' to my introduction earlier~