This might sound nuts, but……

I have concluded about my next relationship, after the one I am in ends of course. Here it goes. I have become so obsessed with Yaoi that I can’t seem to get enough of it. Anyways I want to have a really hot looking gay guy as my friend that can come hang out, watch anime, especially yaoi lol, and just chill and talk about stuff. And of course, I can fangirl over him when he’s not around. Does this sound like I have lost a few marbles??? I personally don’t think it sounds too bad hahaha, however, I may be slowly going crazy and just don’t realize it yet.

Or, an even better option! You could find a guy who pretends to be incredibly gay if that turns you on the most. That way you're all built up when it comes to the sex. ;D lol Also, when you say you have concluded about it, do you mean that you concluded in thinking about it, or have you decided how the next relationship will begin, play out, and then conclude ( end ) ?

Just meant on the thinking of what i would like next. Yeah i see you point about having the guy who pretends to be gay. however, i from bad life experiences, am not a huge fan of sex with guys. So if i had the hot gay guy i can lust over him and not have to have sex with him. As i can take care of myself in that department lol

I've had bad luck finding anyone lately so I'm not even particularly picky except for common interests and attraction. Cuddling and watching anime and such.

Call me mc nuggets, but I just have this nagging feeling that gay guys probably wanna find other guys to hang out with. I can't say 532% since I think I lean towards females but the blood is in my eyes, and now I can only watch the ocean of blood... Its wave crash against my forehead again and again, AND I JUST NEED TO LEARN HOW TO SURF!!

The way you say "oh as soon as this one is over" implies that either it's falling apart and you can't let go, or that you're just not a nice person.

CommanderTK it's non of those. as i am not looking for a boyfriend or to get rid of my current boyfriend. just that i want a gay guy as a friend. An as for the statement as soon as this one is over, its that my current boyfriend has several severe health issues that we are currently battling. And in reality he isnt expected to be here much longer. I love my guy and will be devastated when that time comes. Maybe that is another reason that i am only looking for a friend and not a boyfriend, as losing someone is going to be so hard and wouldnt want to have to go through that another time.