ri_chan

Let me start of by saying that I do not condone suicide. That said, I don't see it as an easy way out. I personally have attempted several times between the ages of 12 and 16. I was a self harmed for many years. I've been sober for the pass year and a half. Life is frustrating. I know. My dad married a woman when I was 4ish and up until this past march, I was physically, mentally an emotionally abused by her, her mother, her son and many people in my home town. Including the cops. She used the fact that my real mom isn't the greatest to beat me down. "You're just like her" "you'll neer amount to anything" "ugly" "fat" "stupid" and so on and so forth. I admittingly had anger issue at the time so I blew up often. I've been told to get out and when I left I got the cops called on me for "running away". CPS was called on her multiple times but each time they dismissed my case after talkin to her once. Even after documenting bruises and othe injuries. Black eyes, scratches, I've had a broken nose and a cracked rib before. Both went untreated. I was unable to rely on the system for help and it was suffocating. I was admitted to two different facilities twice for one and one time for another. After that, I was told that if I tried again that it was jail. No more hospitals. Jail. Whether or not that was true didn't matter. My friends and many teacher knew. But they couldn't do anything about it. The reason for telling this is to illustrate as to why suicide is (at least was in my case) a thought that seems really good. It can now be seen not as an easy way out, but an only way out. I am out of my situation, but it cost me damn near everything. My dad, my little brother (who has told me straight up that he hates me now) and my niece who looked up to me. I have also lost my job, I couldn't stay with them due to traveling. I lost most of my belongings which included my car. I lost my ability to attend my college again due to traveling. Again, I don't condone suicide. But I do think that some of you who are posting an talking like its the most horrible thing you could do should know what it looks like from the other side of the frosted glass. Neither side is easy to see from the opposite side. But if want to, it's there.

おはようみなさん〜わたしはもどってきた！WW かわいいさん、はじめまして。わたしはリちゃんです。よろしくおねがいしまし。＊ゆみ＊エクタラ、わたしもあついのてんきはだいすきです。TEXASからきたんだ、わたしはあついのもっとおえるはさむいより。WW かわいいさん、がんばって〜！かんじがむずかしいべんきょうです。 I'm feeling REALLY lazy so I'll leave it at this today~