Yoshikage Kira

Think it's time I say a bit of something. I'm really getting sick of my ways. And well, I don't really know what happened. I'm sure many know me for my 'energy' and whatnot, but that doesn't seem to be me anymore. I'm too nervous to get quite literally anything done in the real world. Heck, nowadays I'm too nervous to even send a message to a soul on this site. I fear that he or she or they may think me desperate if I confessed my love, that they'd think me an attention seeker for talking of my troubles, or a clown, for my jokes. This fear that anything and everything I do would be perceived negatively... I stay away from things like getting a job, finding love, making friends. Just once I'd like a bit of courage... Where oh where has it gone? All my color?