Jamie Henry Brown

@gabriel_true Day 102: I told my sisters through a very long letter how I've been feeling lately. I tend to have trouble saying my issues out loud, so I notice that when I feel too overwhelmed by life stuff, I end up writing to that person I want to talk to. I was scared waking up today...even though I knew they would never shame me for how I felt, if anything, I told myself that they probably wouldn't make a big fuss out of it (to not scare me away) but offer silent support/help – I was right. The first thing my twin did when seeing me after coming back downstairs was pull me into a very warm and tight hug. The only thing she mentioned about what I wrote down was that if I saw myself the way she sees me, then the letter would never exist in the first place, and then we started to cry together while our eldest sister silently watched us. I keep reminding myself how good God is despite these momentary struggles. Because, something that came to mind last night after I finished writing the letter was a prayer request I gave the LORD where I asked Him to help me be even closer with my family, and one of the ways I asked Him to do that was by helping me share my feelings with those in my family who genuinely care about them. And even though it's such a sad reason I'm finally able to be honest about these ugly thoughts I harbor towards myself...I am thankful for the strength God has given me to be able to ignore my doubts long enough to write everything I needed to say down, and of course I praise Him for the support system that He's given me through my sisters. - God's Love Never Fails, Even When We Do: Wei-Wei