HyperCade20

Yes. Strong and even reliably smart enough to bulldoze very cruel things away from me in life. Even if I am doing amazingly well in a positive way despite parents shouting at me, "What the Hell are you doing!?" When I go buy something important, parents tell me "I got one!", which stresses me. When I pick a restaurant for my birthday dinner, mother and her friend think it's too expensive and choose a restaurant where my face gets creamed, leading me to deep depression. Most of my life growing up is being around old people, special ed students, Millennials that either parents prefer me to be around while I refuse or like the other way around. I was put on antidepressant meds for 30 years and they all worsened me. I only met 1 therapist and 2 counselors. Neither one helped at all. I heard a friend tell me to find a free therapist and avoid paid ones due to them being greedy while counselors are much worse. It's been many months since I spent time with my hobbies, but life concerns keep pulling me away from them. It feels like... https://youtu.be/XBTOqyUtX-0 https://youtu.be/LrRfjmv-5cQ

I feel you are right. I am struggling to eat and live healthier while avoiding as much unacceptable wasteful things in life. My mother thinks our area is the best part of Earth, but I feel deeply lonesome from my kind of Millennials in my local area while my stepmother told me, " ... once again… I will tell you… It is your decision not 10 other peoples." But I heard loneliness is unhealthier than smoking. Things I lack are some more important kinds of knowledge to learn for living while professionally managing my scheduling and timing better.

Thx friend. Living independently with ASD or just generally living independently is discomforting. Important things are large enough to even kick my hobby free time away. I feel too lonesome from Millennials of my kind in my area, but deeply fear older generations I've spent way too much time with that make me feel like Millennials would look at me as inferior, laughable or unconfident.

Low on energy. Struggling to find some beneficial things to reduce it that's nothing too artificial or not artificial art all, so I can get busy again.

Argh, I hope the weather will becoming better soon~ Here it's messy outside. The weather cannot decide if it wants to rain or let the sunshine out