Empyreal Light

ouo yeah I have a few, got a couple dogs a cat and a horse (horse is kept at a friend's family members place as I live in the middle of a city I go riding some weekends owo

IM SAYING!!! it has to end XD it cant always be this way lol i will go crazy if that were the case lmfao. yeah yeah tomboy type who can be girly at times. like do boy stuff without being vulgar like a guy if that makes sense ^^; that would be nice lmao yeah i never got that XD i mean you have a body and the body does that stuff but glorifying it is ehhh weird XD. yeah watching anime and playing sports is the dream, hopefully it doesnt stay a dream...unless virtual reality/robot waifu become a thing then forget everything else lmao yeah i will message it to you. tbh idc where i reply to someone. but i feel like i put more priority to comments on my profile. and i am so open with everything i pretty much say anything out in the open without caring about who sees it so pms kinda aent needed. but i will respect everyone's wishes if thats what they wanna do. though there are a few secrets i have that i dont tell people ^^; wait what? a girl? lol is that a joke? XD that kinda flew over my head tbh. but if your a grill thats cool, i think? lol wait zenithra? what does that mean?

tbh i dont care at this point TwT i just want the feel train to end lol wanna kick back and relax i mean i have had good times yeah. but like the good kinda outweighs the bad so its like non-existent. but im sure the day will come imma be optimistic for now. i have faith might be an instance of life testing me or something like that. yeah i mean bro's and the like are kinda cool to hang with idk about dating though. its like dating a friend and yeah they might be your gf/bf but they feel more like a friend rather than a lover if that makes sense. you might just want a tomboy tbh XD a girl who acts like a guy but is as attractive as a girl? i would like a mix of tomboy and girly. yeah they are girly but they can do things like play games and sports and junk. tbh all i really want is a cute short girl and is good to me. and can bare with my bs XD a flat chest would be nice too -3- but its not a deal breaker lmao gonna keep fingers crossed tho. yeah i mean with the story i can always pm you what its about just like idk if i will ever get to writing it

oh and about the story i mean it is a good one XD i just am too lazy to write it -3- if i did you would see for yourself.

well i mean life has ups and downs but so far its been a huge down .-. im still looking for the up. i feel like im stuck in a huge trench and cant find a way out. but once im out i can live life how i want it. cuz i have goals for myself. like you i want a family of my own. nice girl, just my type, who i can fall in love with and feel safe you know? so far i havent found something like that. the girl's ive dated give me that false sense of security like yeah things will be ok but it never works in the end. i mean it might just be my picky-ness or it could just genuinely be the girls but idk. when i find that girl i'll know. it would have to be a girl that makes me feel something other than boredom....which is pretty much how i feel toward every girl rn. ehhh you can always have a fam with a guy. adoption is always an option. idk how having a surrogate would work for two guys ^^; honestly cuz i've never thought about it. but im sure there is a way. im def sure i like girls though and im glad i do cuz if finding a girl is hard...imagine a guy. must be a nightmare. plus girls are sexy af so there is that XD im putting off dating until my life gets sorted out. idk it feels weird to jump into a relationship now...i dont feel i could handle the responsibility of one right now. it would be more of a burden for me and stress me out even more than i already am. too many things are needed for a relationship, time (which yeah i have but like with the way things are rn i doubt i can give it) money to visit them if they are out of state (which i dont have), then there is being mentally stable for one and im more than fucked up atm XD so the single life is fine. gives me one less headache tbh. imma be catching up to you soon though. i literally have zero things going for me rn ffs im a neet TwT but like really i wanna be in a good spot but life just likes seeing me lose. social anxiety, high metabolism, no luck with jobs, no luck with love >.> stuck with annoying fam, trouble with school list goes on. being bullied, having no friends :P what can you do eh?

yeah man sorry i didnt rewrite it but like its a pain and im too lazy...oh yeah i forgot to add the part about me making a story as well but im too lazy to write it lol its supposed to be a dark story but like i dont feel like writing it -3- i will start and then give up. i have the attention span of a baby. it sounds close but you dont realize how far away it is for me. 3000 is ALOT of food. and think about it 1710 of those calories are from my weight gainer shakes (which im out of, and i cant afford anymore cuz its like $300 for a couple weeks worth) so now i gotta eat twice as much since half of my 3k is gone. yeah its fine i can just talk to you later imma play some games until then

i wrote a long reply back to you....and the page closed out before i could send TwT idek wanna re-write all of it, i just wanna die orz. i'll just like sum up what the reply was. *movies are cliche nowadays *7 pounds away from joining airforce *going to my aunt's house for summer to see if she can fatten me up *i was perfect for the gamestop job yet they didnt hire me *having no life *parents cant afford my eating habits cuz i eat over 3 calories a day

Yeah movies nowadays are kinda boring. People hype them up abd then you watch them and your like this wasnt worth. Yeah nowadays alot of movies are being made based on anime/manga. Though alot of them are bad. Edge of tommorow sucked hardcore i would have rather the manga be turned into an anime instead. Yeah but i dont have time to wait for that ^^; i kinda want out of my parents house. Its embarrassing that im still living with them and on top of that i dont have a job. I have like zero luck finding a job yet my sibling got a job before me and they are younger. Thing is my brother only got the job cuz he told them he does wrestling -_- what are the odds? Then i nailed an interview for gamestop and made sure to call them every week to show my interest in the job...no job orz. Its like god wants me to live with my parents forever TwT