Shard

I seriously would of went beyond insane if not for schizophrenia kicking my teeth in. That's scary to think about. Almost makes me not hate the voices / demonic oppression. All they do is exaggerate my darkness so I feel it. Feeling it sucks because it causes guilt, shame, despair, blindness, and condemnation. But, without them waking me up to my own flaws and darkness I would be lost cause somewhere in the Andromeda galaxy and I never would of known Jesus and built a relationship with him. They must didn't know how to destroy me. Or God wouldn't let them destroy me. I shouldn't be looking at the voices as being helpful and thinking man you helped me it was ultimately God who uses evil for good and allowed the persecution for my redemption. It was for a purpose. It's strange how things work out. The voices truly want to destroy me. But, God is so powerful that they end up causing me to flourish. He surely is sovereign over all things. All Glory to Jesus you truly cared enough to not let me go insane. This thorn in my flesh is just keeping me close to you. I'm happy thorn in my flesh God is the Best. I remember how these hardships saved me and what the hardships taught me. So I can say you are the best without being hurt. You don't take pleasure in suffering it's all for a redemptive purpose. Anyway, my gf was having nightmares everyday I told her to put two verses on a sticky note and hang it by her bed and the nightmares stopped. God is good. The verses was psalm 4:8 and 2 Timothy 1:7