Confessions

i saw my bully/ex best friend wearing lingerie and i blushed. she meant to send it to her boyfriend who is also my ex. i developed a crush on her for some time.

I... Nope. I'm not touching that. I confess that it was I who let the dogs out.

No you don't. As someone who is in danger during this whole thing as well the ignorance of people is horrifying. I had to cut ties with everyone in my family but my brother for that exact same kind of mindset. I'm sorry it happened like that, but responding will only pull you to her level. Best to delete it, block her and move on. The best kindness you can do in that situation is nothing at all. I had no idea you could go on disability for appendicitis, that sounds like some Trumpy logic right there. If you want to scream and yell at someone send me a message. I'll pretend to be completely ignorant if it helps you get all that negativity out.

I have a host of things stemming from immune system issues. Nothing on your level physically I imagine. I tend to be very sickly and already have breathing problems and known cardiovascular issues. There is a chance that I could fight off this virus like most people do, but given my history and previous diagnoses, there is a fair chance I couldn't. So I am actually scared of it. On the mental end of things I have fairly severe OCD with one of my biggest triggers being my fear of harming those around me through my actions. While this normally leads me to checking ovens and doors, over cooking food, those kinds of things, during this whole pandemic it has completely set me off. I was sick for the better part of the last month and have been in a constant state of pure anxiety believing I had infected everyone around me with the virus. I haven't been sleeping or eating and the only thing I can do is wait until either this passes or one of them gets it so I can blame myself. None of that is as bad as worrying about needing surgery though. I've had it twice, once for my gallbladder to check polyps that appeared to be tumors and once to rebuild my throat and sinuses to help me breath better. I can't imagine needing to recover from those again with the world like this. Much less getting prepared for it only to have them pushed back because they don't want to handle anything. I know you can't get disability from the appendicitis lol, I thought it was crazy that she would even mention such a thing. I do the same thing you do, write something 50 times, check it over and over and over, finally when finished, delete it because it isn't worth my time and just writing it out over and over eventually let off all the steam. I've been there so many times lol. Though, if you DO crush her, I want to see the post that does it. I can't imagine you spitting fire that hot :P. Florida is going to be a bloodbath. People are still acting like nothing is wrong. I have a friend that goes and gets groceries for me right now, so I am lucky. It is surreal, people just refuse to acknowledge that this is a serious thing that can cause permanent damage and death. Both states have failed miserably handling the situation and it is going to show in the death counts. Stay safe hun and I hope you can get the surgeries you need asap.