Confessions

I cant stop thinking about suicide, the past few weeks have been rough but ive been trying not to show it... ive been talking to people again which has been nice but its just making it worse... hearing how well its going for others just makes it worse... Or trying to give advice that im not sure if i even believe makes me question everything... I dont know how much longer i can do this, but ive never told anyone because i dont want it to seem like i just want the attention, or people to think about me differently... Everyone has their probs so why share mine, or if i do will people still want to talk to me?????????? Tbh tho i dont think talking to anyone would help so is there even a reason to tell anyone? I dont know whats wrong with me lately...

I don't want to sound cruel Kuro but this is the reality we're in. We tried helping people, but no one will ever help us, other than pointing their finger telling us to get up ourselves. I'm the same like you, i mean it, but i've made my decision to put everything down to rest, my next birthday will be my last and i'm just enjoying whatever's left of me. I'm not telling you to do the same, but if you still feel like you can change something, or actually recover from the pain, do what you think is right and best for you. Me? I'm too exhausted

Don't do it. If you do, then you will miss out on the best things in life after you are gone. If you are unhappy about your day in and day out job? Quit it. Govdo something that gets your blood pumping. Depressed over no love? Work out and go make friends. Eventually someone will come along naturally. Stay off MO? Honestly you probably should for your own sanity. Or at least dial it back a bit. Kuro you are truly not alone. Do not listen to the self doubt in back of your head anymore. Push forward and break your limits.

X you too. I do not know you but it will not be worth it. Also its not cool supporting someone else to do it as well. You want attention? Don' t do it on MO in the middle of the night or early morning. No one will be on to help. Luckily I saw this is time. Change up your life and add something good to it. If you say you can't then you are just making excuses at that point. I do not want to hear how bad depression can get, I know the shit sucks personally first hand as a homeless kid. Shit turns around after awhile. Do not give into fear. It is a liar.

I'm not looking for attention or help. He is struggling with pain and i sympathized myself with him that he's not the only one. I was once like you, going around yelling "it's not the answer, the future will change for the better", i know every bit of such segments completely well. But like you said, you don't know me, you also don't know why, there will be things that will change a person , each human possess their very own perspective, certain events can result in an everlasting effect to certain individuals. My point here is telling him to figure out what he wants to do. Because i've been through enough to know, that hollow encouragement are pointless

Why even post it in the first place then? You could have already done it quickly but you choose to post about what you are feeling as well. You deeply want someone to give you a reason to live because you feel like your life has nothing more to offer. You are wrong and news flash we are here moron so stop saying stupid shit. https://media2.giphy.com/media/HXmo6id444aVG/giphy.gif

I thought about what i want for months and got my answer. I'm not justifying anything so there's no reason for me to make excuses. We don't know each other, call me whatever you like

Yeah we do not know each other but you could also use that same statement as reasoning for just leaving this convo. Don't take the easy way out from life. It's not done with you yet. When its your time it shall come normally like everyone else. I do not know what hardship you have been through and you do not know mine. All I know is someone is talking about ending their own life and I am a witness to it. So I figured throwing my two cents in. Its a weak way to go for those who are broken who want to stay broken.