Confessions

I confess I'm not texting my best friend back purposefully. I don't want to sacrifice my day off from work to hang out when she always brings her husband. -_- I have my reasons.

That is one of my many reasons. Why do they want the third wheel?! Don't come to my house and act like you're on a date I'm intruding on, please. I want to be on a unicycle, okay? *ends rant*

I confess that the reason why I am single right now is because of the fact that my ex-girlfriend what is literally that type of independent person that is thinking forward forward forward and not thinking long-term. As it felt like when dating her if I lived with her it would be with also her roommates in the fact that she is a mom so she has to think of her child and also the fact that she has to work so with the fact that I am not working right now I don't want to make someone feel like I am a freeloader or feel like I am not doing my fair share. So I would always try my best to do what I need to do in relationships. and the other thing that I want to confess is that I am too much of a forgiving person because seriously if I wasn't a forgiving person I would have already blew my top off because I've had been cheated on and had things stolen from me + even called out of work just to spend time with the girls that I've dated. Seriouslyand the worst part about it is when I graduated from high school was the same time I was cheated on... And last year I even miss my ex so badly that I gave up all dignity that I had while homeless and found a way to get back to New York City with my family just to not be able to see my ex until November 29 of 2018 when I was supposed to see her November 24th of 2017 or December 28 of 2017, March 13th of 2018. We seriously had an on-and-off relationship to the point where right now I'm literally looking at what I'm doing with my life and having to find out that I have been wasting so much time hoping that I can have a future with this girl and we are have had an on-and-off relationship since 2012.