Broken between the past and now

Hi there. I'm in a bit conflicted... I've never been with a guy in my life... and I guess I'm just a bit afraid. I've been with girls... But it always ended badly... my last relationship ended after 3 years, 9 months of being together. I suppose I'm a bit broken... maybe I want to find out what its like to be with a guy... Maybe be in love. However... At the same time, I have my doubts. Will any guy like me? Maybe... I suppose I just wanted to vent.

...venting iis good ^^ sometimes i ask myself maybbbe i'm better with girls than guys girls are better at love than guys are to me anyways i can't even find girlfriends over this site i chat to more dudes than girls but sometimes i think maybe im too much for guys?maybe guys can't handle me?maybe girls will?will i ever get a guy to truely love me is there really a thing called true love and will i ever finnnd it what am i doing?what do i wannt? etc...etc.... heh we all ask ourselves questions and we all have doubts what if he dont like me back what if looks matter to him than i thought what if what if what if.....all im sayinng is your not alone even if u r into females or just males. what if he hates my house what if he doesnt like my room what if he doesnnt like my cooking what if he thinks im werid what if he thinks im a bad driver what if he thinks im just a loser living off ramen noodles what if he laughs at me what if i take a poop and he laughs and say ewww you stink!!!what if he think i suck at sucking?(xD that one is alway on my mind when it comes to bed time) what if he doesnt like me what if he hates my life style? <=] heh..its normal i think ur not alone

My only recommendation is take things slow. Test the waters , there is alot of great guys out of there and there is a lot of jerks its understandable to be a bit take back but don't let that deter you. Everything is an experience, if you don't already get some guy friends to see how things are different or the same. Venting is good let you get some options from others.

It takes all types. You should be fine as long as you have some patience. Like I believe I've said before, though, avoid desperation. If you allow that to dictate your standards, you could end up with a bad match and be stuck in a miserable situation for quite some time. You're still young, as are most people here, so it's a little early to be a defeatist. You have plenty of time to find what you're looking for and having confidence can only help.

@scooby what if.. the guy doesnt care about all that and likes you for who you are smells and all.love real love if you can find it is not caring whether if you have a house made of sausages care bears on the wall burn food, crash cars, have huge poos or are even terrible at sucking even all that combined if he is in love with you then all that should matter is that your with him.at least that's how i see it i can only speak for myself not all guys are the same and we dont have all the answers,but i like to think we all fall in love with someone.its just finding them thats the hard part just keep looking you'll get there

chuckles. I think almost everyone has fears and doubts about how atractive they are to the opposite sex. Only being use to having female mates would make it even worse because its easier for a female to understant another female than a male. Finding a guy to have sex with is easy but finding one to have a relationship is more complex. you just have to learn to be more assure of yourself and dont mind if you ever get turned down.