Parents

My Dad doesn't want to get a job, his only source of income is selling his stuff on ebay and bootlegging movies. He's a "Born again christian" and always goes around preaching the word of god to our family telling people how they should live their life's and he follows nothing of what he preaches. He's also a conspiracy theories, he believes the government is always watching him and tells me I'm a fool for going to collage because it's "A form of government control" and "Going to collage gets you no where in life". The worst of it is when I was 13 I moved out of my Dad's and started living with my Grandparents, they're really awesome. My Grandpa and Dad fight almost everyday and my Dad blames my Grandpa for being jobless, poor, all of his problems, and tells my Grandpa "no one loves him." I've gotten into 2 psychical fights with my Dad over this.

I dislike my mother, when I was 9 she left my family for another man. My dad was a state to state truck driver and he was far away, he begged her to stay for the kids until he got home and she can leave but she left anyways. My older sister(6 kids) had to take responsibility for the rest of us and she became bitter because of this..she was a 20 year old forced to take care of 5 siblings that didn't know what was going on. Anyways...my dad comes home after a few days have passed and ended up quitting his job and finding one that was in the state just to provide for us. My dad and sister(even though she gets on my nerves a lot) are important to me because of this, they sacrificed so much because of what my selfish mother did. Faster forward to now and my mom lives with us thinking that we owe her something, she hides food that I buy for the family for herself and get mad when we find it and eat it. The worst part about it is that her leaving really did mess me up more than I know, a few years back is when I realized this. The fact that I have really bad abandonment issues is because of her, when I say bad I mean bad. Like when your in abusive relationship and you keep hanging on because you're afraid of losing someone, even though you know you're in a bad relationship you just can't get out bad. Anyways that was bit long but I haven't really talked about in a while and it just feelsgoodman.jpg