Heartbreak and Dismay

Oh god... <P> Well back in the day when I was in high school. My friend Joel hooked me up with a kouhai that attended my school. I never knew she was interested in me nor knew she existed. Well when we got together she was already 2 months preggers with some asshole's parasite. We both didn't know she was knocked-up until she told me was hasn't had her period. So her folks found out and kicked her out of the house. She stayed with a friend of the family for the rest of her pregnancy. She was living much further away from me. I walked and biked over 15 miles to see her. I was supportive and endearing and even wanted to put my name on the birth certificate. Her mama made her give it up for adoption. I was still there for her and eventually she lost interest in me and started dating someone behind my back when I transferred high schools. I had to hear it from a friend she was already runnin' around with some other guy and when I confronted her about it she didn't deny it and kicked me to the curb.

I see thats tough sorry to hear that happened to you it goes to show no matter how strong you may be for somebody and how much you do for them they can still abandon you in the end however there is always someone out there that wont do that but its hard to find that kind of person now and days

Oh god... <P> Fast forward 12 years she comes back into my life. She was going through a divorce. This time she had 2 more kids that she kept from the marriage. I gave her another chance (a VERY STUPID move on my part). This time the only way I could be with her was that I go into an open relationship with her. Prior 1 week after meeting on FB, she came across her old HS crush... a crush she had while dating me in HS. She wanted to be "connected" with him. So I agreed and it was the most dumbest thing I ever agreed to. She already had her lover on the side and she would only like to cater to him. She was the only one getting any benefit from the relationship. She eventually started pulling away and she even moved to his small comatose town. We eventually got into a huge argument. I said what I had to stay and she's now gone from my life... again.

Sigh sometimes a ex just wont get out of your life its a fact sometimes they do it just because they know they can or to spite you they play with your emotions they had for you knowing full well that there still prominent and use that to their advantage again im sorry for it but that has taught you a lesson though in life with that kind of thing

Oh god... <P> I also dated a nice Jewish girl before her but she was like a Rei Ayanami... an emotionless doll. So I broke it off. <P> Fast forward 5 years in college. After the endless love poetry emails she sent me I gave her another chance. She just ended up cheating on me with some catholic boy. He was too scared to confront me so she came alone and choose him over me. After all this time trying of her trying to get back together with me she just cheated and kicked me to the curb. I remember the day very well. I was suppose to come by her apartment and hang out. Well I was left in front her her apartment for hours and no way to contact her. Her roommates came home, Her brother Joel (small world huh?), and finally got a hold of her she was with her other guy at his place.

Oh god... <P> In college I met this chick in my Japanese class. She was this super Christian only wet for Jesus type. Even though I am an atheist and a devoted one, she could not get me out of her head. So we ended up dating. It was an awkward relationship. She was a bit scared of being intimate and sex scared the hell out of her. We tried it but it was way too painful for her so we never went all the way, which is fine. But then she just didn't want to have a sexual relationship anymore and pulled away and kinda pulled this disappearing at on me. She eventually went to Kansas City, MI to pursue some unaccredited Christian college to do a course there. Well She "discovered" her sexuality again and became a slut. She eventually got knocked-up, guy ran out on her and she came back a mother now. Now she wanted to get back with me and I refused only because how she would deny me things just to go do it with A LOT of other guys. Well she's disappeared off the face of the earth again.