The Road to Happiness

Uncle Gabriel @gabriel_true hey! Sorry for the late reply, I've been doing grocery shopping all this afternoon. I think I didn't properly conveyed what I meant when I said I'm incapable of love. I'm incapable of romantic love, not platonic one, there's quite a lot of people I love in a platonic sense, that I wish nothing for them but the best life has to offer, it's just the romantic one that simply has never happened to me, tbh when I stopped focusing my attention on it and giving it less importance my quality of life improved, I stopped stressing over it and getting anxious, it's not like I feel the need of having a romantic partner either, if it comes then it comes, if it doesn't, well, it doesn't, I just stopped focusing so much over it, when I was obsessed with it - it made me feel different... In a bad way, now it's just whatever. As for loving myself, that's tough, I can confidently say I love what my personality is nowadays, it's just the physical aspect and representation that makes me sad nowadays and it's even more difficult to discuss it because of how heavy in emotions it is. I thank you for your words of support, it's not always easy to write something that's fully good willed, I appreciate the effort

just a little small thingie update... I went to the Endocrinologist (the doctor who prescribes the hormonal treatment, another option would be a gynecologist I guess) and discussed things with him, he told me we could formally start the transitioning process by the end of September, I just need to get some things sorted out in the meanwhile and prepare myself for it. I gave him the letter that the psychiatrist wrote and he said all was good and we could proceed with the schedule we set-up, soooooo I'll officially begin in 3 months, I'm pretty happy, excited, anxious and interested in what the future will hold for me, it will be a very thorny and difficult path, also one filled with discrimination, yet I cannot let anything stay in the way of happiness anymore, so now all the paperwork has been officially taken care of!.

I am very happy for you Ms. @swadian. I remember a couple years ago you talked to me breifly and brought up your struggles with your identity. I am very happy you have found self-discovery and hope for a bright future for you in your transition. Even when the world seems like it is full of vile people going against you, be bold and be unapologetically yourself!! I send all my love too you and if you ever need anything, I can exchange discords if you have it and I will check back when I can even if we are just strangers. Now go out there and Slay girl!!! #transrightsarehumanrights https://thumbs.gfycat.com/CleverHiddenBighornedsheep-size_restricted.gif

AspieChu @projectotakux You know, when I finally reached the decision I felt this huge weight off my shoulders, like things were finally looking forward and I could finally let go of the bitterness and hatred. I'm not sure how I am gonna end up developing and looking like, tho I do know this is the only way I have where I can be truthfully happy, sometimes we just gotta do what we can with the hands we are dealt