Empicca's Territory

https://media.tenor.com/NWqpMD0B0T0AAAAC/aasdsd.gif I Immediately went home after my grandfather's funeral. And now it is 1AM already. I've been asleep from 2PM-1AM. Lol. To think that I was not even physically tired. https://media.tenor.com/-KLOoR7ZU0wAAAAd/anime-sleeping.gif My dream was super clear this time and it was just me back at my old apartment, on my bed staring at the ceiling and thinking how thirsty I was. https://media.tenor.com/xqxOzz8piV8AAAAC/stranger-by-the-shore-mio-chibana.gif Also I've been thinking a lot about why and how there is always an unhealthy release of my emotions. Idk what's the proper term for it, but like it's prolly me not recognizing my feels...not feeling/understanding what and how I feel...I do not have time to be aware of what I am feeling in this fast-paced world...Also growing up I've been told not to cry, or not to feel certain emotions because I have more important things to do in life...Just like for example today...I do not think I was able to grieve enough for my grandfather because I have things to do like my sched for work/school is so full I do not have the time and my mind was just nah just focus on this because it is what it is...Same goes during the pandemic...my mental health went to zero because of what is happening around, but I should not also focus on that because work and classes continue still, and that's my priority, nothing else...but that's just me. Im prolly just overthinking right now. Hahahahahaha