song- every time

this is the first verse for a song i started writing i usually wind up getting pretty depressed around this time of year (last year i wrote recorded and mastered a 12 track mixtape to let it out) so this is what i wrote every time this year i get depressed short breath gun to chest but always try my best but its never good enough no it never ever mattered try to climb up to the top but your left beatin and battered got a job to better myself but it just messed up my health what i'd do wrong i cant explain it so write this song confusion got the best of me but will this be my casualty i finally lost my mind i am an abnormality put my hands together try to pray every single night try to beg for a better day when will it happen im stuck inside in the dark the light to come through fill the void in my heart pick up the peices one by one be the one to help me please be the one im tired of drowning in this lake of despair grab my hand pull me out show me you can care