Stens Thoughts

anyone know how i can get someone to love me :3 i always seem to fuck that part up..............................................................................................................................................................................................

i have been playing piano for half an hour non stop now xD idk why but that little melody i can never get out of my head

should i start playing the guitar? i mean i have one... i just dont remember the chords and stuff, naah i already play piano lil bit (self taught :3) ah not that anyone is gonna read this anyway

Why is depression a thing, i have heard that smarter people usually get depressed? does that mean i am smart or just extra unlucky? :I

Why... even here i find it hard to send the messages i write? i always give it a second thought... i mean barely anyone will read this XD and the people that do will either relate or pity -.-

this place is probably gonna get a new page tomorrow XD cuz then it is a school day and i will barely be able to get out of bed... i have just been ever so tired as of late... feeling exhausted even if i just woke up and barely been able to eat because... well i do not know? i feel full easier and longer even though i should probably eat more... i usually eat three meals but now during these last 2 days its been like a microwave meal and a sandwich or something... idk why but i feel like puking rn o.o feels weird that is probably because i have barely eaten today...