Keeping my sanity

I force myself to act more concerned than I really am sometimes.

I have lost grip on my personality?

I seem to be more than one person at times.

I do things on reflex.

Like being kind are caring toward others. I don't even need to think about it.

But today was different.

For the first time I had to restrain myself.

I felt sudden urge to do something outside of my character.

Something very bad.

It was almost as if I was no longer myself.