Maiotaku Timely Confessions

#309 How does one know when they truly find who they’re looking for. I feel like people generally know what they want when they get it but I also feel like I’m kinda slow in that department. Fundamentally I know I want something but even if it was right in front of me would I even take the initiative to take it.

#310 I’m byfar a hypocrite tbh. I know what’s right and wrong as well as how to give advice while being stern, but that’s not to say I’m boasting, I just feel sad even if I help others that I can’t help myself a lot of times. It feels nice to know some people take what you say and may or may not apply it here and there but to know that you yourself can’t apply it hurts.

#311 What slightly grinds my gears is to say something and care for a friend but to be ignored and watching them just down themselves and you feel like you have to watch, that their being is your concern when it isn’t. Even knowing that only that person in reality can be the only one to help themselves change it just burns inside to know that they won’t. It burns a lot because you don’t change either.

#312 Maybe I should focus on getting friends and socializing but even then ppl coming and going kinda feels bad. Always feeling left behind when you want so badly to have the same little niche group everyone else has with 1-4 other people or that tight nit that can say what ever they want everyday like others. But I know, it just doesn’t work out that way, not with my nature.

#313 I hope when I get to be someone it’s genuine not out of lonliness, love for the sake of love, jealousy of others having a relationship, lust, or anything like that. I really hope it’s for that person and I don’t indulge in being stupid and desperate.

#314 Some girls say they’re not looking a week later... welp gosh damn I just wanna be friends with new people but okay

#315 https://scontent-dfw5-2.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/41936231_1827757217333067_6658110739514916864_n.jpg?_nc_cat=0&oh=16772961538398b51d48ba3c7ec844fc&oe=5C2ABAEA

#316 Mio ill buy you some hookers

#317 Mio