Vent

i LOVE it when ppl totally dont contribute to a conversation and make u do all the work. I don't mind too much if its bc someone is bad at conversation or talking but come on i am too but at least I'm TRYING :(

I was hung up on an ex for years. Only recently did I get over them and the longer I exist without those rose colored glasses, the more reality sets in about the whole relationship. They would get angry and yell at me even if we were in public. I never knew what I would say or do to piss them off. They would go from 0 to 100 and it scared me. I even asked to be yelled at only when we were alone. I saw nothing wrong in them treating me that way, as long as it was kept private. A couple of weeks before our breakup we were at an event where many people who knew us were at and they had their biggest freak out on me. I said something like "I won't coddle you", I in no way meant that as an insult. They lost their shit and screamed at me with hundreds around us for 10 minutes. I didn't know what to say or do (like usual), I was so embarrassed. They eventually broke into tears and sobbed so loudly I got on the floor and repeatedly apologized until they stopped. At that point I utterly lost who I was as a person. Hoo boy was I fucked up after that and ended up leaving (due to other reasons tho). It's only now I know I shouldn't be treated that way and I get kinda angry I was for so long. I never once yelled back..

I was in toxic relationships as well, nothing ever that serious like tiki said. Honestly thats just fucked. For me it was a girl from here i dated. once i broke up with them realized how shitty they actually treated me. Would ignore me for days when they were mad and only respond after me begging and apologizing over and over. They would treat me like shit over the littlest of things. In the end we only broke up because she had feelings for another dude. When i asked her to pick me over that guy she just said we should be friends and start over later. Im assuming just using me as back up incase that relationship failed